What would you do?

[bny807]

Hello all! hope yall had a great thanksgiving!   OK i'm in kind of a deliema....so as some of you know, we've been ttc for a while, with two pregnancies via IUI and two mc's : (     my last one almost two months ago- both miscarriages were different- the first at 9.5 weeks with a blighed ovum - no bleeding at all until the 9.5 week mark.. the second, my beta's looked great - doubling every 26 hours, but i bleed from week 5 till 6 when i miscarried.. dispite the bleeding my beta continued to increase fast.. well we took two months off and AF should be here in about a week or so..
   originally we were supposed to do the genetic testing and clotthing disorder testing at the end of the two months, but AF will be here before that -the end of december.. so my dr wants me to either have another surgery for endo and look at my uterus to see if anything is causing the mc.. and maybe wait for the blood testing.. or i could go ahead and start the follistim up again when AF comes in a week or so
    the problem is that if i wait and "waste" another cycle waiting for the bloodwork, the holidays might interfere with getting the bloodwork done (it has to be at a special lab or something) and we might waste yet another cycle! we've decided we don't want the surgery since it hasn't been a year since my last lap and we are at least getting pregnant as is... SOOOO do i just start another follistim cycle in a week and pray that IF we get preg again that i don't miscarry?  both mc were so different from each other, is it likely that its one problem - like a clotting disoder causing this, or just crappy luck?  thanks so much for ANY and ALL opinions! good luck to all!

[Anya1984]

I know what you mean...its a long road but you gotta be strong even though it is hard! Believe me, I have my problems too and every day I am nervous and scared that something can happen and than I will have to start again...so i live in nightmare everyday and try to stay positive!
So I just hope that you have enough strengh and take one day at a time...you are young and good things will happen to you!!!! Very soon!

[bny807]

Anya: thanks so much! that means a lot!! I sure hope your right on this one! and for it to stick too! : )   its so overwhelming starting it all up again.. i'm trying to take one thing at a time, but you can't help to think about all the what if this happens or doesn't happen etc etc.. but it will all hopefully be worth it in the end!
  
Heather: Yup.. thats just the way its gotta be, no if's and's or but's about it! its super sticky BFP time!

[Anya1984]

I have no doubt about you getting pregnant this time! Just really no doubt!! You got pregnant 2 times and so nothing will stop you from getting preggo again!!! Just watch! seriously, I have a very strong faith in you!

[Heather5]

OK, I'm in! BFP by New Year's it is!!!

;-)

[beth0414]

i can relate to all of you who experience this kind of challenge..wer also having a hard time agonizing the decision to go or not to go on..we've ttc for a long time(6yrs) but everytime there are failures along are way we stumble and fall and stand up again..but as of this moment we wer on the same way again..trying for the 2nd time on our present RE..after the failure last cycle..just got my u/s and b/w this morning to find out my estradiol was sitll very low but the good thing is i have 2 tiny follies (compared last month only 1 follies in bad shape and size- thats why AF came last nov22.).wer on our 4th GONAL f preparing for IUI..still hoping that these follies will grow enough..coz if they will not reach yet the enough size we will increase our dosage on Gonal shots..w/c is too much expensive again..huh!blah!

[bny807]

Yea Heather! thats great news!!! : )   Ok like last time we were cycle buddies a BFP for the new year is all we'll have ok? hehe.. we're just not going to accept anything less than a seriously sticky BFP!!!   right?  : )       Hopefully for both of us the third time will be the charm!!!! Keep me updated! i'll be a week or so behind if AF comes when i think it will!
   Anya: Thanks so much! i'm making it... getting kinda emotional this week knowing that i have to start everything back up again, that and EVERYONE around me is finding out they are pregnant - so being around all the baby talk day after day is a little rough at times... I just so want to be able to join in as well.. Glad to hear everything is giong well. and i hope your right that everything will be fine if we are blessed enough to get preg again!

[Heather5]

Well, I had my baseline this afternoon...and NO CYSTS! So I'll be starting femara/menopur again tomorrow! Let's hope we both get a Christmas or New Year's BFP...oh, and a super sticky one this time!!!

[Anya1984]

Hi, my friend, how are you doing?
I guess I am glad that you are on that route again, keep it that way! I think you should start now though.. I probably wouldn't worry about m/c, because like you said, each of your pregnancies were different, which means that you just had a bad luck but next time could be your time!! Maybe its not time for surgery yet....
I had a missed m/c back in April and so was very scared when i got preggo again...but everything so far is fine, so you have a chance too!!!! Many more chances, honestly! You are young and have all that strengh!

[candie429]

Well, I don't have much advice for you, but it looks like you've made your decision anyway.  I know it's an agonizing decision, but it's good that you and dh have talked about it and are on the same page and ready to move forward.  Good luck with the meds and I will be praying that you get a nice sticky bean - the best Christmas present ever!  :)

[bny807]

Thanks yall!   Good luck on your FET- keep me updated! : )  i'm sending you tons of SSBD! : )
heather: let me know how your baseline goes today!! I think as emotional as i've been the last day AF is going to be here early next week or so.. so here's to a lucky cycle for us both! its crazy, i haven' thad an ultrasound or been to the dr in two months almost! it will seem foreign doing it all over again! Its been nice not having my time eaten up by dr's apts! but its all worth it right?   ugh!   GOOD LUCK!! keep me udpated!

[Heather5]

Good luck, bny!!! Glad to have my cycle buddy back ;-) I have my baseline today, so crossing my fingers I didn't get any cysts last month...

[cwolf1006]

Well good luck to you, it will happen, I know it stinks hearing that because I get mad, sad, annoyed,etc. when everyone says that to me, but I still have hope!

[bny807]

thanks so much girls!  well after breaking down in tears last night talking about it with my husband (i think its just so overwhelming thinking about starting this all up again) we decided we would just go for it and start the follistim/femara next week when AF comes...then i cried more thinking about the possibility of another miscarriage if we are so lucky to get pregnant again, and how stupid i'll feel if we miss the testing and we do in fact have some clotting disorder or something like that... however since both miscarriages were so different from each other my gut is telling me to just go for it now, so i think thats what we'll do!  thank you all so very very much for your input, i REALLY appreciate it and GOOD LUCK TO ALL OF YOU!!!! keep me updated! : )

[cwolf1006]

The FET is scheduled for Jan. 15 as of right now! Hopefully all goes well until then. Keep me posted on your decision, what is your next step?

[Heather5]

Ooooh, that's a tough one, bny. I want to say go for it...so we can be cycle buddies again :-) If you didn't have the issue with follicles not rupturing, I would say just TTC without the trigger. But I'm guessing that probably wouldn't make much sense, right?

Did your RE suggest anything one way or the other?

[bny807]

thanks! yea they never did much about the endo initially.. it was an obgyn who operated and since it was "everywhere" she didnt' touch any of it except my left ovary- endometrioma...would you wait for the testing, and possibly loose two cycles or just go for it again in a week or so?? yikes! why does there have to be so much to all of this! blah!

[Helen72]

Hmm, I am not sure what your doc says but I would try ttc again since your lap is still pretty recent and endo is hopefully not coming back yet.  Difficult choice though...  

[bny807]

thanks girls!   i REALLY appreciate yalls opinions! : )    yea the first time we had the mc.. we jumped right back into IUI.. no break or anything and the first mc was especially tough since we had planned our pre-IVF vacation with a bunch of adventure stuff - scuba etc.. and didn't do any of it due to being pregnant, which I was SOOO excited/thankful to give up the adventure stuff. i was sick as a dog (morning sickness) and we came back to find the sac measuring behind as well, and i continuted to have hyperemesis and no signs of mc for three weeks.. so i should have taken a break after that for sanity sake!! this time i decided i needed to take a break or i'd end up in the looney bin! try to do the things i used to have fun doing etc and had givin up to ttc!
   Helen:   apparently the hcg shot can interfere with the testing.. so i said how about we wait till right berfore the trigger and then do it.. but that will be around christmas time.. and even though my RE's office will still be open, the "speciality labs" that do this chromosomal stuff won't be.. so chances are i'll miss it.. and we have to wait two months with no hcg in the system at all to do the testing.... otherwise ya i was thinking the same thing.. AHHH what to do?  i'm leaning towards just starting back up, and taking the chances.. whatcha think?
    cwolf: when is your IVF?  I am praying the third pregnancy (which will hopefully happen someday) is also the charm!!!
  I"m praying for you both and thank you so much! : )

[Helen72]

Why whould a blood test interfere with ttc?  Can't you do both??  You may not get results before the end of this cycle but you should definitely do the blood test.

I am glad to see you back!!

[cwolf1006]

I by no means can make your decision for you, but maybe by looking at my decision it can help you make yours. 1st IVF ended up with negative beta, 2nd IVF (FET), slow rising beta, large & misshapen yolk sac, causing the baby to measure behind, at 10 weeks no heartbeat, had a D&C in Oct. Dr. gave us the choice to wait or to try again after HCG went back to 0, we decided we would try ASAP. We had the embryo tested after the D&C and results came up with nothing, no chromosomal defects, so they are ruling it as just something that happened! Testing can't even give the exact reasons/answers. So we decided to start again right away instead of taking a break, reasons being I was afraid if I took a break I would put it off and possibly not try again at all, my work is on board with it right now and I am not sure what the future would bring with the way the economy is with them, we have $ saved for it(insurance does not cover any), I am not stressed about it because I know the procedure, I don't have time to research, read, obsess, etc. about it so with that I am feeling more relaxed. And maybe just maybe by the #'s-"the third time is a charm", we will get lucky!! Keep me posted on your decision and if you decide to go for it maybe we will be on the same cycle!