i feel like such a *****!!!!!!

[babydayz421]

ive just found out that my uncle and wife are expecting thier 2nd baby dont get me wrong i am happy for them but every time i hear that someone is pregnant i fill so sad and depressed, and as asshamed as i am to say it im so jealous whens it going to be my turn????  everyone in my life is pregnant or already has children its getting me so down that i find myself makeing excuses not to go round friends and familys houses like i used to i cant bare feeling like this!! sorry for going on xxx

[vingulf]

i just found out that a friend of mine is 6 weeks pg with her second child! UGH! last sept, she told me that they're going to start trying for a second...and boom! here she is 6 weeks pg - seems like no effort! its not fair! she doesnt even chart or anything! really, NO effort except the BD! and her cycle is not even regular!

I hope my ivf worked...this 2ww really sucks! I try to think positive...but I dont want my hopes to get so high...

[rxyrxx919]

LOL I know how you feel about people asking.  With the clomid I gain a little weight every month and people are always asking if I'm preg.  too so they must think I'm getting a little heavier too! =)   I am kinda small so when I gain a few pounds it's very easy to see so people are probably getting the wrong assumptions because they all know I'm trying!    Actually one of the girls on maternity leave has her daughter in my class so she comes to drop her off every morning w/ the baby and her 2 year old... kinda hard and I know how it is cuz I'm extremely jealous of these ladies and I wish I wans't!

[Helen72]

I just want to say that i know how much pressure infertility can put on your career and your marriage.  The more invasive the treatments, the harder it is to take the failure.  At least in our case I am the source.  I think that male factor would have been sooo much more difficult on our marriage!  After years of trying and failures depression is an inevitable conclusion.  Pregnant women around us don't make this journey any easier especially when they flaunt it in your face!  I am yet to see a second line on an HPT.  Haven't even seen an evap line!  So far our first three cycles after my surgery failed.  After a month or two we are moving on to IVF and that what keeps me going.  I am glad you prepaid for your next IVF cycle for that is the best treatment for my depression.  
I wish you the best of luck and SSBD!

[ashort]

I'm a 3rd grade inclusion class teacher.  I'm the spec. ed. teacher in the room.  We had another girl who was preg. at our school but she got fired...so that makes one.  The thing that gets me is that people know I'm trying so I'm constantly asked if I'm pregnant yet.  It's starting to make me think I'm getting fatter...haha.  The other teacher is due in May.  I actually am doing some after school center work and she is too.  We all arranged our schedules around her due date.  It''s just hard to be around it all the time.  She brought in a cake and cookies to tell everybody...I'm just so jealous.

[rxyrxx919]

OMG I hear that "I am thinking about it too much" all the time!!! It annoys the heck out of me!!! People just don't understand!  I would probably want to walk out too, that would drive me nuts!  It's hard to be around these situations!  The three on maternity leave are all 3rd grade teachers and the 3 pg are 2nd grade teachers and I'm a kindergarten teacher so everyone there comes up to me all the time saying "it will happen for you in 2 years cuz that's when its kindergarten's turn" blah blah blah! lol... it just gets so frustrating! =)

[ashort]

rxyrxx-  Yeah, I know what you mean.  Their is a preg. teacher at my school who knows I'm TTC and isn't in the least bit sympathetic.  She even interrupted a faculty meeting to tell us the baby kicked.  I just wanted to walk out of the meeting.  She's nice but not really considerate.  She told me I'm thinking about it too much....I'm just a little bitter!