i feel like such a *****!!!!!!

[babydayz421]

ive just found out that my uncle and wife are expecting thier 2nd baby dont get me wrong i am happy for them but every time i hear that someone is pregnant i fill so sad and depressed, and as asshamed as i am to say it im so jealous whens it going to be my turn????  everyone in my life is pregnant or already has children its getting me so down that i find myself makeing excuses not to go round friends and familys houses like i used to i cant bare feeling like this!! sorry for going on xxx

[ashort]

Kat0513-  I'm have no right complaining about attending a baby shower when you have had to throw 3.  You are not ALONE as you can tell...since we all feel the same way.  I know where I'm going after the shower on the 13th...HERE.  It is very hard...I had a m/c in June and since then I feel like I've been trying to play catch up to getting preg. again....counting down the months...staring at my calendar...

Onedaysoon-  My dh doesn't really get it either. For the first time though, I saw the pain in his eyes when he heard a couple of his friends wives were preg.  I think he is feeling like I'm feeling he just doesn't show it.  I go to acupuncture...psychics...talk on here...anything to make me feel better.  he just keeps it in.  For awhile he was sick of hearing about it but now I think he is also a little concerned...

[onedaysoon]

I'm so sorry to hear about your troubles.  What a tough year for you!  What's your story?  Why the m/c's?  How in the world are you handling all this and what do you tell yourself to get through it all?  My heart goes out to you and I know how bad it hurts!  

[onedaysoon]

Your dh also sounds like mine.  I guess it's not that he doesn't understand , he just doesn't outwardly express his disappointment the way I do.  Maybe it's a guy thing.  By the way how are you doing and what's your story?  I just asked Kat about hers but would like to hear about what you are going through.

[ashort]

I got preg. in end of April the beginning of May.  I had a m/c at 7 weeks in June.  It took me 14 weeks to get af back.  During that time I started to see a RE.  He wasn't sure why af was taking so long coming back.  He did a water sono and found nothing.  With in 2 weeks I had af.  That was Sept.  We've been trying since.  The first month i didn't o, second and third month I was on clomid and ovidrel.  I produced good follicles but nothing came of it.  This month I took a break from the meds.  I just needed it for myself, my own sanity.  It was so hard to do but I was going every morning before work for u/s  and it was a lot getting up at 5 and racing to work.  I also started acupuncture in Nov.  I figured it can't hurt and it's super relaxing!  DH and I are also feeling very discouraged this New Years.  For the first time ever we are staying home....What's your story?

[ashort]

Oh and I insisted on the m/c screening tests and I have MTHFR gene mutation...blood clotting disorder.

[vingulf]

Oh, I feel bad whining about my friend getting pg and here you are throwing those showers!

Hang in there...like what ashort said, you are not alone. this is a good support group..im so glad i found it.