OK, I think I have an extreme case of anxiety. I have posted on teh HIV forum before, but I just saw the anziety forum, adn its been helping me alot. Here's my situation:
4 months ago, I went to a club and was dancing with a lady. While we were dancing, I was licking her neck, kissing her neck, and sucking on her neck (like giving her a hickey) for a long time. She also kissed me on the lips twice, closed mouth. When I got home, I noticed that I had a cut on the inside of my lip. It was raw, and open, but it was not bleeding. It looked like a blood blister with some sores around it. I then freaked out and thought "what if" she had a scratch on her neck, or cut, or open wound on her neck where I had been licking and sucking, and some of her blood from that open wound got into my open wound in my lip. Would there be a chance of transmission there? has there ever been anyone who has gotten HIV from this type of behavior before? I know its not exactly sex, but it is sexual in nature, and my irrational mind cannot differentiate. I need to here it from more people that I am being ridiculous, and that there was NO risk. I have heard low risk, but in my mind, that means there WAS a risk. Like from dumb and dumber "what are the chances that we can be together?"-Lloyd "I would say one in a million" - Girl "so youre saying I have a chance!!!!"-Lloyd. Even if there is a one in a million chance, in my mind, I am the unlucky one in a million that this would happen to. BTW, I am married with three kids. Oh ya, and I got tested at 8 weeks, 12.5 weeks, and again at about 17 weeks = all negative. I am very worried that I gave HIV to my wife, and to my kids as well. And I am worried that I am going to be one of the "Very rare cases" that do not seroconvert before the 3 month mark. Please help.
THanks.