Appollo, thank you for the reassuring reply..
you and the other moderators of this group are doing a great job by bringing the rational thoughts to the posters..
you're answer is calming..
my thing is that I went to a counsellor (psychotherapist), I had a nice session with him, but the problem is that I studied psychology before, in a way I was aware of what he would tell me about, I felt that he was just applying a therapy method on me..
I'm not sure if you read my exposure in this post
http://www.medhelp.org/posts/HIV-Prevention/Anus-preseminal-fluid/show/1761497#post_8107672
I'm not getting it scientifically why "frottage" is not a risk, the opening of the anus is a mucous membrane, and preseminal fluid may directly hit that area, then BAAMM, the transmission may occur!
this is the fact that is worrying me, when I got this slight sore throat twice! and painful nodes, what a coincidence! I was sure that I'm already infected!
when I meet my friends, and talk about sexual behaviors I feel myself in the safe side and I realize that "frottage" is a very common behavior.. but when I'm alone, I return to this thinking (mucous+preseminal contact)..
I used to have more risky behaviors in the past, it's weird why I'm worrying specifically to this incident.. that's anxiety, no?
I'm not doing sex anymore and I'm not willing to do.. until I meet the right person to be in a monogamous relationship, I think I need love!
you don't have to reply.. but it's nice to write in this forum and let people with knowledge read about my case..
Thanks again..