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Help?
Everyday I feel like somone is pointing a gun at me and making me wait, Everday I feel alone yet im around alot of people, Every time I wake up I feel the hope suck out of me. A good day has now came to not going to the Hospital but weirdly a great day is going and seeing a good Doctor.
I dont know where to start but about 7 Months ago I got sick with a sore throat and from that day on has been a nightmare, At first I thought I got HIV from a staple in my chair but I know that doesnt happen but I think im the first, so yeah I went and got tested the first test made me feel better for a few hours but that was worth it because I needed a break I couldnt sleep or eat just cry. So after I few hours my aneixty came back so I have gotten tested again over and over I had about 10 test now I do belive the test but I think the Doctor is lieing to me because I have aniexty they might think I cant handle it, so I fear the Doctor coming to my house some day to tell me the bad news. I cannot have my phone anymore for I cant stand to hear it ring, I hate when my dog barks im scared the Doctor is at my door, then it came to the point where I just couldnt take anymore I went to the Hospital and told the Docotr that the Health Dep is lieing to me and I need treatment ASAP they looked at me like I was crazy and I made them test me and they did well anyways I left the Hospital so I had to go to medical records to get my test now im so upset because I think the Health Dep then had time to change my results. I understand this is all alittle to much to take it, it is for me aswell. Im on Medication and it does not help at all! Anyways I now think I have tongue cancer and I cant take it, I need treatment for that but I know the Doctor wont even check me because I have been then 100 times in the last 7 months.
I find myself doing weird things anymore like i cant stop washing my tongue with Vingar and other things.
But I cant even look outside anymore its just to sad, I cant do much of anything really,everyday I begg people to believe me and to help me.
Wish this would end wish I knew the truth.
I dont know where to start but about 7 Months ago I got sick with a sore throat and from that day on has been a nightmare, At first I thought I got HIV from a staple in my chair but I know that doesnt happen but I think im the first, so yeah I went and got tested the first test made me feel better for a few hours but that was worth it because I needed a break I couldnt sleep or eat just cry. So after I few hours my aneixty came back so I have gotten tested again over and over I had about 10 test now I do belive the test but I think the Doctor is lieing to me because I have aniexty they might think I cant handle it, so I fear the Doctor coming to my house some day to tell me the bad news. I cannot have my phone anymore for I cant stand to hear it ring, I hate when my dog barks im scared the Doctor is at my door, then it came to the point where I just couldnt take anymore I went to the Hospital and told the Docotr that the Health Dep is lieing to me and I need treatment ASAP they looked at me like I was crazy and I made them test me and they did well anyways I left the Hospital so I had to go to medical records to get my test now im so upset because I think the Health Dep then had time to change my results. I understand this is all alittle to much to take it, it is for me aswell. Im on Medication and it does not help at all! Anyways I now think I have tongue cancer and I cant take it, I need treatment for that but I know the Doctor wont even check me because I have been then 100 times in the last 7 months.
I find myself doing weird things anymore like i cant stop washing my tongue with Vingar and other things.
But I cant even look outside anymore its just to sad, I cant do much of anything really,everyday I begg people to believe me and to help me.
Wish this would end wish I knew the truth.
Thanks:)
Hiya well HIV isnt a concern for you so the Thearpist dosnt need to worry to much about that. Over time, a combination of medication and help will get you past all this, best of luck
Yeah I went to the Hospital and they put me away for 3 days but it kinda made me worse as to the Thearpist didnt know much about HIV told me I need to be tested for a year also I was only tested up til 5 months, Also The thearpist didnt help at all. Im on Medicine now
Yeah I went to the Hospital and they put me away for 3 days but it kinda made me worse as to the Thearpist didnt know much about HIV told me I need to be tested for a year also I was only tested up til 5 months, Also The thearpist didnt help at all. Im on Medicine now
Knew the truth about what? Well you dont have HIV and you didnt have a risk.
Have you not or has your doctor not recommeded you seek help for your current state of mind?
Have you not or has your doctor not recommeded you seek help for your current state of mind?
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