You might be infected, but it is not from HIV. You never had an exposure. HIV is not transmitted by oral sex.
Thanks Teak. If I am infected by something else other than HIV, that would be less stressful for me. I can handle it, and move on having learnt my lessons. Yes, so I hope it's NOT HIV. This one would have shattered my world. I would breakdown completely. I took this risk after 1.5 yrs of staying away from sex because I am now faraway from home in another country. It's not worth it at all. I have been so silly. But I am trying hard to forgive myself. Let it not be HIV, I pray.
...15 days after the exposure and I have two early cold sores on my mouth, an indication that I contracted Herpes Simplex Virus (HSV 1?)....Now, I am only hoping that it stops at this. I would not expect a co-infection with the deadly HIV....This would end my world immediately if it turns out that way. I have made a big fool of my self...What a world!
Please take the advice given on here. You did not have a risk for HIV based off of what you stated your exposure was, which wasn't an exposure anyways. Cold sores on the mouth are yes indeed HSV 1, which is not an STD. I believe 1 in four people have HSV 1. If you ever get a cold sore on the mouth, you have HSV 1. My husband gets them from time to time. It's nothing to worry about. You have no worries for HIV.
You really mean oral herpes caused by HSV 1 and resulting in cold sores is NOT a STD?
If you look up on google, typing in is HSV 1 considered an STD...you can read that information. They technically don't consider it an STD, but HSV 2 is, the genital kind, which is the one that can increase the chances of HIV transmission if the partner is positive, and if there was an exposure.
You did not have one to begin with.
If this is the first time you have ever gotten cold sores, if you kissed your partner, and she has HSV 1, even if no cold sores are present, it still can be transmitted that way (HSV 1). Still not considered an STD, as I said, it is a very common ailment, not life threatening, more like a pain to deal with. It is a virus, and once having it, you always have it, but that can also mean you may never have a cold sore again. Even if you did, as I said, it's more of a pain, there's nothing dirty about it.
Regardless of all of this, I see you mentioned unprotected oral sex performed on you. Was this your exposure, and only exposure? If so, there is no risk to begin with, so relax! Take some time and read through some of these forums, you will see that not one person who stated their "exposure" was from oral sex, turned out to be positive.