Hello, I need someone to talk to, anyone to talk to, everyone has turned on me, I have zero people in my life,,
from November last year to febuary this year I received unprotected oral sex from 6 different stangers, one who I know is hiv positive,
I have been sick ever since febuary, oral thrush never feeling well, just feeling real glitchy, I pretty much narrowed down my illness to hiv, I tried to tell my family I think I should get tested for hiv and they pretty much blocked me outta there life, I lost my job in june, im literally on the edge right now of my life, I hate my self,
I have been married for 10 years, so I have had unprotected sex with my wife, no one else in my lfie time, I went out side of our marriage and received these blow jobs like an idiot, I will never forgive my self
feb 9 received unprotected oral sex from 3 differnet people in one night, all under 30 seconds a piece, the one whom is hiv positive,
burning penis 2 days later for 2 weeks, went to get checked for stds came back neg for gonno and clymindaya,
got real sick day 36-50 after exposure and have been sick since
I feel like my whole body has shut down,
current symptoms is oral thrush,
weak, no energy,
always tired
please someone talk to me