Genuinely scared I might be infected

[Luciano1993]

Here is my story. I'm a 26 years old white male living in Romania. I've had on and off sexual experiences with CSW's and I always used a condom for vaginal intercourse. As for being stupid, the oral sex performed on me by the CSW's was almost always unprotected. I've read many times that unprotected oral sex carries no risk of HIV transmission but now I'm not so sure. I started losing weight, started developing balanitis which is pretty recurrent and I always fear the worst. I'm currently in a relationship right now and I'm very scared that I might have infected my girlfriend although I've also had many relationships in the past years and none of them presented any symptoms, to my relief but still, these negative thoughts are fueling my anxiety to the point it interferes with my daily life. Should I mention that I was tested for HIV nearly 3 years ago and it was negative. I'm pretty scared. Are my feelings irrational? I always used a condom for vaginal sex. Please give me your honest opinion on this.

[GuitarRox]

Since you had protected sex in terms of intercourse, that means you couldn't get HIV from your activity.  Oral sex is not a risk for HIV.  The only risks are unprotected vaginal or anal sex or sharing IV drug needles. Air and saliva break down the virus.  Balanitis can be bacterial where you'd need antibiotics for it or fungal where you need antifungal agent for it. It's not related to HIV but see your doctor to treat it.

[Chima7]

My honest opinion is that, yes, your feelings are totally irrational. Using a condom for penetrative sex is how you avoid HIV. Being on the receiving end of oral sex has never in the history of the disease ever lead to an infection and you certainly won't be the first. Find a way to deal with your guilt or shame about having been with CSWs because that appears to be the root cause of your irrational health anxiety. I recommend therapy of you want to move forward without this constant anxiety.