I am a 23 yr old straight male. Although I usually wear a condom when engaging in sex, I have made some mistakes in my past. My girlfriend of 4 years, who we normally engaged in unprotected sex (no longer) has been tested for HIV - which she is negative (not sure if that helps much) - she is the only one who I've had intercourse more than a few times with unprotected. I have been under much anxiety lately, and I've come to the conclusion that I most likely have HIV for various reasons:
1. Since I was 16, I've had unprotected sex with 6 different women (5 of them were a 1 time thing).
2. About a year ago I had multiple painful ulcers in my mouth, which the doctor diagnosed me with coxsackie virus.
3. About a year ago I can remember having some kind of 'thrush' on the side my tongue, the same time I had coxsackie (it got worse with the use of anti-biododics).
I've read on here multiple posts, and I find that I am spending more time on the internet researching / reading articles on HIV - and I've fully convinced myself that I have this illness. I know the simple solution would be to get tested, but I am afraid I can not live with a positive result, as I am sure will be the outcome.
Please help