Thanks for your reassurance - this forum is literally a life-saver and I think the work you all do on it is great.
Thank you
Your worries are all the guilt talking. It sounds to me like not only was this a protected situation...but it was ULTRA protected...including changing of condoms frequently in between acts. That is great.
As long as a condom remains intact during sex (and you would KNOW if they broke)...you are 100% protected against HIV. You have nothing to worry about.
If it makes YOU feel better to get tested in 3 months, just to solidify what we are telling you...then go ahead...but there is no risk to your wife.....continue on as normal.
You need to work thru the guilt of your actions...and only YOU can do that for yourself. If need be...seek some counseling.
Relax though....you were totally protected.
Oh, and quit reading online and searching the web...you'll drive yourself mad!
You never had a risk by having protected sex.
Hi
When I recieved your reply, I cannot tell you how relieved I was. I immediately calmed down.
Now, a few days later, doubts are creeping in...
Your advice sounds so confident and I guess that's because you guys are dealing with this stuff all the time and you are up to date with the research but as I've noticed some posts from other contributors, when you start doing your own research, you start getting some conflicting (at worst) and far more cautious (at best) advice and information.
So, impossible question. Are you SURE I'm okay based on what i told you? Will it be okay to resume normal sexual relations with my wife?
I am petrified of transmitting something, and terrified of her finding out because we're abstaining.
I've gone through the nights events a million times in my head and I'm sure they are as I described. And I know you put everything into 'risk' assessment - like being struck by lightening - but some people DO get struck by lightening.
Just seeking reassurance
Two women at the same time.... well when you go south your go really south.
The truth of the matter is, all science & all the research out there states the same time and time again.... condoms will protect you from HIV. Apparently you even had a condom on when they went "down on you." So there is not even room for debate if you had exposure.
This may sound silly, but grab a 7-11 bag, put you hand in it, then place your hand in a sing full of water, pull your hand out.... and poof like majic you will see that your hand never got wet..... the point is, sometimes you have to remind yourself the actual physics of condoms...
In my opinion, you ill feelings are all due to guilty feelings.... but to be honest, you just have to get past that and move on. Because if you tell your wife...... you will be toast. Just live and learn.
Good luck
Sorry we can't help you with your guilt. Try the anxiety forum. You didn't have a risk of contracting HIV.