Hive exposure and nurves

It has been right at a year now since my possible risk.  I was wearing a condomn the sw.  It was vaginal from behind.  I and my permanent partner have stomach aches; I have noticed two sores in my mouth now, hands feel like they have needles in them, and back of knees ach and i am really nervous.  Have not tested and have not told my partner.  I know the only real way to be sure is to test.  just trying to work up the nerve.  my last post was around 201010.  Someone please talk to me

[LIZZIE LOU]

http://www.medhelp.org/posts/HIV-Prevention/Is-this-hiv/show/1366854?personal_page_id=1825903#post_6238713

NO RISK

[fearfull11]

my partner has had swollen nodes in one armpit for some time now.  the doctor prescribed antibiotics but they came back.  my partner even had some runny clear fluid from behind the ear.  Can't bring myself to tell them, and afraid to test, have recurring mouth sores, burning mouth, and loosing the taste sweets in my mouth.  I can't let it go, I can't tell, and i can't test.  I am just weak right now and tired.

[fearfull11]

Well I finally got up the nerve to test today, thru an online site.  Got to the test center and my paperwork was not there.  Failed to bring a the confirmation request with me and did not have the online site's number.  I have the information now, but don't know if i will be able go back a second time to try and test.  any thoughts?

[Teak]

You didn't have an exposure and didn't need testing.

[fearfull11]

I finally tested today.  There is anxiety with it but this way I will know for sure.  Apart from that I hope and pray for a good outcome.  If it is not i brought it on myself and don''t know how i will tell my partner.  I have been living with the thought of becoming infected with HIV for years, and yet any number of actions would have led me to becoming infected.  If this outcome goes well, I will seek counseling to help me past this.  If it does go well I know now for sure that if it is negative, then negative it is and I am not infected.  

[fearfull11]

test results came back negative, and I am relieved.  

Value Range Result  
HIV-1 Antibody Test with Reflex to Western Blot Confirmation <1.00 <1.00 Negative

HIV 1/O/2 Abs, Qual HIV 1/O/2 Abs, Qual Non Reactive Non Reactive Negative

can somone help me to understand what the terms indicate a little better, I mean beyond negative.  Thank you

[LIZZIE LOU]

you didnt have a risk and negative is negative

[fearfull11]

My appoligies for spelling your name wrong

[fearfull11]

this site goes a long way too help us with our concerns.  Please don't stop doing what you are doing.  Thank you