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I can't stop crying
I've been crying for the past 88 days since my last hiv exposure and my symptoms which drove me crazy, I tested negative at 82 days, thursday july 5 will be my 91 days and I can't stop crying, I know 100% i'm positive, i've had all the symptoms, I can't stop crying, I am dehydrated already...my mouth is dry, I went to the doctor 2 weeks ago, told me I have postnasal drip, I search and its cause by HIV, I know I have it. this is the worst time of my life....i've never thought I'll experience HIV symptoms or that I'll ever get this disease....I pray to God everyday, I'm so concerned about my health, its driving me crazy.
I just read Mavericks post and became more angry than scared. This Dr. H and some of the other experts swear you don't get it from certain things and now Mav has it. And then how some people respond to Mav like he's a liar, I know wont believe me if I have it. I assure you I know the person that gave it to me. And if I got it I either got it from 2 places. THe girl I fingered or the girl I had protected sex with. I don't wont to hear about odds either. Life is just not fair sometimes.
And on an unrelated note, my washer is broken. Pneumonia, asthma, broken washer...*knits brows together darkly*...It's a conspiracy. That many things can't be a coincidence.
AND I had a flat tire last week.
--Mamabear, signing out for the day--
AND I had a flat tire last week.
--Mamabear, signing out for the day--
Jag, I rarely go to that forum. I have my doubts about Mavericks post for this reason among others. (forgive me if you've heard this 10,000 times before).
My husband has HepC. He got it via IV drug use probably 20-30 years ago. However, when he was diagnosed, he was an upstanding citizen and engineer of some note. He outright LIED to the doctor, denied any past history of drug use, and insisted he got it during sex somehow.
HepC really isn't considered a sexually transmitted disease, but as my husband doesn't look or seem like anyone who has ever used drugs, I'm sure he was marked down as one of the "rare" ones who aquired HepC sexually. That's how statistics go awry.
And I know for a fact he lied about it. He's told the story to so many doctors now that even HE believes it, and will become enraged if anyone so much as hints he may have ever used drugs.
He even denies now, to ME, that he ever used drugs. And I know he's used drugs. He knows I know. He can't even look at me in the face when he says it.
So you have to take an anonymous internet forum poster with a healthy dose of skepticism. You don't even know I'm a nurse, for that matter. I say I am...but you don't know, do you? I'd hope someone wouldn't eff around saying they had HIV via making out in a bar...but weird things happen on the internet all the time.
My husband has HepC. He got it via IV drug use probably 20-30 years ago. However, when he was diagnosed, he was an upstanding citizen and engineer of some note. He outright LIED to the doctor, denied any past history of drug use, and insisted he got it during sex somehow.
HepC really isn't considered a sexually transmitted disease, but as my husband doesn't look or seem like anyone who has ever used drugs, I'm sure he was marked down as one of the "rare" ones who aquired HepC sexually. That's how statistics go awry.
And I know for a fact he lied about it. He's told the story to so many doctors now that even HE believes it, and will become enraged if anyone so much as hints he may have ever used drugs.
He even denies now, to ME, that he ever used drugs. And I know he's used drugs. He knows I know. He can't even look at me in the face when he says it.
So you have to take an anonymous internet forum poster with a healthy dose of skepticism. You don't even know I'm a nurse, for that matter. I say I am...but you don't know, do you? I'd hope someone wouldn't eff around saying they had HIV via making out in a bar...but weird things happen on the internet all the time.
Not if your only exposure was oral. You don't even need to test at all after that. Just once a year is fine.
Look. Anyone can start to notice symptoms if they are worried enough about a particular event or problem. If I sat down right now and catalogued every strange "symptom" of something I have, I'd probably go off the deep end with worry and fear.
Peekawho's 1st Rule of Thumb: Anything bad, will eventually get bad enough to announce it's presence without a doubt. If something is so obscure that a doctor or doctors can't even detect it, you will probably not die from it. If it's bad, it'll get worse.
Chronic post nasal drips, red dots, a spot by the fingernail....they are part and parcel of the experience of being a human being. You will not die from any of them. They don't have to "mean" anything.
Peeks 2nd Rule of Thumb: What you concentrate on, you get more of. Concentrate on your dizzy feelings, your itching, your spotty tongues...and I guarantee they will get worse.
I try to ignore most things. If they don't get worse and I don't die, I figure its just one of those minor odd things that happen to us. I live sensibly, eat relatively right, don't smoke, drink a little, and figure there isn't much to be done about the rest. If I were having sex with something that didn't require batteries, I'd be safe there, too.
That's just my philosophy. Life's short enough as it is to worry so much about the small stuff. And though it seems huge to most of you right now, trust me...Oral, protected intercourse, fingering, monitor cables tickling your hemmies...as it relates to HIV, it shouldn't even be on your radar to worry about.
Look. Anyone can start to notice symptoms if they are worried enough about a particular event or problem. If I sat down right now and catalogued every strange "symptom" of something I have, I'd probably go off the deep end with worry and fear.
Peekawho's 1st Rule of Thumb: Anything bad, will eventually get bad enough to announce it's presence without a doubt. If something is so obscure that a doctor or doctors can't even detect it, you will probably not die from it. If it's bad, it'll get worse.
Chronic post nasal drips, red dots, a spot by the fingernail....they are part and parcel of the experience of being a human being. You will not die from any of them. They don't have to "mean" anything.
Peeks 2nd Rule of Thumb: What you concentrate on, you get more of. Concentrate on your dizzy feelings, your itching, your spotty tongues...and I guarantee they will get worse.
I try to ignore most things. If they don't get worse and I don't die, I figure its just one of those minor odd things that happen to us. I live sensibly, eat relatively right, don't smoke, drink a little, and figure there isn't much to be done about the rest. If I were having sex with something that didn't require batteries, I'd be safe there, too.
That's just my philosophy. Life's short enough as it is to worry so much about the small stuff. And though it seems huge to most of you right now, trust me...Oral, protected intercourse, fingering, monitor cables tickling your hemmies...as it relates to HIV, it shouldn't even be on your radar to worry about.
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