Its like I can feel something in my blood

[bigdummy]

My circulation is horrible right now. My hands keep getting numb. I don't know what went wrong with my encounter, but I'm worried. Next week marks the fourth week, I still don't know if I'm going to be tested. I'm really worried right now. I've been eating and I haven't had to vomit or anything. I still have diarreah, but I always do when I get nervous. My throat isn't sore but its something wrong with it too. My joints are sore as well.

I had protected sex and something still happened to me. This person swears she's clean. And says she gets tested once every 3 or 4 months. THat sounds a little too good to be true. I've never been this scared in my life. I'm ashamed how I'm behaving. I just got finished crying thinking about what I'll do if I have this. The encounter only lasted a few minutes, I have horrible luck. I think the virus got in from Vaginal Fluid into a pimple I burst on the the base of my penis or something.

I also am suspicious of qwest labs and there handling of my blood. I still have a bruise and they said I was negative for herpes 2. I wonder if they tested my blood or someone elses. THey seemed like amatures in there.

I just want to settle down one day, have a wife and kids and chill. Graduate from school, get a good job. The stress alone from this little episode is killing me.

[bigdummy]

I'm a nice person who just wants to be healthy. I pray I'm negative.

[OCguy]

I don't know you, but when you say "I'm not one to just forget and forgive, if I test pos...I don't know what I'll do to her," I hope you're poorly wording yourself.  Also you say "I'm not a violent person, I have my moments".  I would hope that statement is also another example of poor wording.  Taking those types of statements in context, I'd imagine, would possibly lead to intimidation or concern for your mental health.

[Possible??]

Do you really think anxiety can cause constent tingling and numbness in the hands and feet.

I know you don't respond to my posts anymore, but please help me I am having some serious problems tonight. My wife is gone and I am at home with my two beautiful daughters and can only lay there and cry with the possibility I have let them down.

[bigdummy]

Man, I've been looking for you for the past two days to answer my herpes testing question in the std forum. Some of my post are legitimate questions I have that I need answers to. You seem to have knowledge on these subjects.

I'm not a violent person, I have my moments. But I def don't go around mistreating women. First I thought she gave me herpes, now she might not have. Now I'm on this. I just don't get sick that often. ANd when I got sick last week it scarred me.

[monkeyflower]

I don't usually read your posts, but this one caught my eye. All of your symptoms are classic for anxiety.

Your insistence that you MUST have contracted something, your mood swings, your crying jags, your anger at your partner (this isn't the first time you've made this kind of vague threat), your general distrust, your anxiety--you're making yourself just miserable, and I'm concerned about your safety and hers.

I strongly urge you to ask your doctor for a referral to a psychiatrist. Most insurance companies require a referral from your PCP, but even if not, your doctor will know who to recommend. Call Monday and make that appointment. In the meantime, call your local crisis line or go to the ER if you have serious thoughts of hurting someone else or yourself.

[bigdummy]

also I'm not buying that herpes 2 negative. I know this girl gave me something. I just hope its anything except the big one.

I'm not one to just forget and forgive, if I test pos. I don't know what I'll do to her. For the sake of me not losing my mind I just pray I test neg.