I hope that this is the right place to leave my paranoid post.
I had sex for the first time three months ago. Probably the reason I am completely paranoid and freaked out - I would, however, appreciate any form of a comment. I am sure there are many out there that have gone through with this before.
My boyfriend at the time and I had protected vaginal sex twice, ie. using a condom. He was careful and seemed to be checking a lot - I have no doubts that we were safe in that regard, we used protection correctly.
As for oral sex, I received, but it was unprotected. He did not want oral sex from me ( in itself strange behavior).
I would not have doubted or become less trustworthy if he we had not ended our relationship very soon after losing my virginity to him. He did mention having a certificate to prove his HIV negative status after breaking up with his previous girlfriend. I never saw it with my own eyes, naive as can be, I guess.
I will be going for a test in three days time after waiting three months as indicated on most forums or information brochures. I have two friends who will also be going since we decided that one's status is not something to fool around with. The support is wonderful, but I cannot help scaring myself with what I am reading on the net.
Possibly paranoia kicking in as a result of my conscience. I cannot help to post this here to ask for support in going for the test, as well as any comments that would lighten the load. Please respond, and thank you in advance.