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Symptoms/sickness/spiraling!
know I already posted but that was very soon after possible exposure. I have repeatedly asked him if he could have HIV and he has repeatedly said no and that he has had no symptoms fever, rash, or anything else. He admitted to being a male escort for women for years!
I am continuing to spiral two weeks after the event, I got sick with what I think is a pretty nasty head cold or maybe even Covid since I work at a hospital.
I already have HSV-2 and have for many years which I take daily medication for as a result of the sickness or around the same time! I started having major HSV-2 outbreaks on top of being sick and have been taking Double medication. I also have gotten sores around the sides of my mouth and in my mouth. Which are not normal for me.
I don’t think I see any thrush and have had not had any rashes although I do have itchy skin. I don’t believe I had an actual fever but I have had a sore throat since the head cold began. I haven’t been able to kick this head cold and it’s been over two weeks!
I’m scared to death/terrified to test for anything! I’m fixating on all of these symptoms and on everything day and night.
I can barely work or take care of my 10-year-old. I’m about close to a nervous breakdown over it, even though he did not ejaculate inside of me. I keep telling myself there was an awful lot of pre-come plus I was ovulating so there was just a lot of juices. I also have some kind of bumps on the roof of my mouth, but they are very tiny. I just don’t know what to think and I’m scared to death!!!!! I guess it’s been technically long enough since it’s been almost 40 days since October 19 being the possible exposure. I know I will eventually have to test and I’m trying to work up my courage. I know this is a long post. I just don’t have anyone else to confide in.
I am continuing to spiral two weeks after the event, I got sick with what I think is a pretty nasty head cold or maybe even Covid since I work at a hospital.
I already have HSV-2 and have for many years which I take daily medication for as a result of the sickness or around the same time! I started having major HSV-2 outbreaks on top of being sick and have been taking Double medication. I also have gotten sores around the sides of my mouth and in my mouth. Which are not normal for me.
I don’t think I see any thrush and have had not had any rashes although I do have itchy skin. I don’t believe I had an actual fever but I have had a sore throat since the head cold began. I haven’t been able to kick this head cold and it’s been over two weeks!
I’m scared to death/terrified to test for anything! I’m fixating on all of these symptoms and on everything day and night.
I can barely work or take care of my 10-year-old. I’m about close to a nervous breakdown over it, even though he did not ejaculate inside of me. I keep telling myself there was an awful lot of pre-come plus I was ovulating so there was just a lot of juices. I also have some kind of bumps on the roof of my mouth, but they are very tiny. I just don’t know what to think and I’m scared to death!!!!! I guess it’s been technically long enough since it’s been almost 40 days since October 19 being the possible exposure. I know I will eventually have to test and I’m trying to work up my courage. I know this is a long post. I just don’t have anyone else to confide in.
Well, nothing at all has changed since you received answers before. The risk for unprotected vaginal is less than 1 percent. It is highly unlikely you got HIV. Go take a test and get your negative you are sure to get. Then the case is closed. You can do that now, take a 4th generation duo test. Expect it be negative and when it is, trust it.
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I’ve been so scared that I can’t function. I cry every day. I’ve been sick with a head cold and sore throat, and herpes outbreaks everywhere for the past three weeks. I know it’s been about four weeks since the exposure but I’m scared to go get the test. I know you said that it’s such a low chance of <1% I don’t know why my mind can’t accept how unlikely it is. all I do is think about how it’s true and how I really messed up! I’m scared to death to test and find out the results.
I'm sorry you're so scared, but we can't offer anxiety support here. All we can do is recommend that you test, and seek counseling to help you manage the fear and anxiety. Counseling really can help, and it sounds like you're in a state of mind where you really could benefit from it.
I just re started therapy yesterday actually, because I’m in crisis mode with this. I already have health anxiety/trauma. I’m close to a mental meltdown over this. It’s so hard getting through each day with this extreme fear. I try to think of it rationally but it doesn’t last. I do plan to test.
I’m just so upset I let myself get to this place.
I’m just so upset I let myself get to this place.
Only a test can prove your status.
You are wasting your young life afraid to test? You should be able to figure out that is not a smart plan and that no one here can provide test results.
You are wasting your young life afraid to test? You should be able to figure out that is not a smart plan and that no one here can provide test results.
Do the test right now, instead of "plan to take a test."
I am so afraid to test. It’s been 43 days. I know I can get the duo test now. But the symptoms and fear/dread are holding me back. I really just want to know and I want this mental nightmare/anguish to be over. I literally get sick over the thought of getting the blood work and then waiting and having to look at the results.
The odds are so low that you got hiv from this. Less than one percent. I'm sure you are going to be negative. Just test. We won't chat until you do here. There's nothing to say.
" I really just want to know and I want this mental nightmare/anguish to be over." But there is only 1 way for you to know and you REFUSE to do it, so unfortunately your suffering continued and your post indicates that you have chosen a path that will make it continue.
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