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Why am i still worried a hear and a half later

I'll sum this story up as I have read all the testing guidelines and transmission risks, But i'm wondering why I just can't get this out of my head.

Unprotected sex in Dec. of 06

Neg. test at 8 week (elsa)
Neg test 12 weeks (pcr DNA hiv 1, no elsa)

(was with a girl, whom i masterbated with my fingers, might have had some vaginal fluids on my hand and then touched a picked scab on my forearm, not bleeding but pinkish from where i picked the scab)  it would be like if you tapped once your finger to this spot, (this sounds stupid as I am writing this)This was at the 21 weeks mark

Neg. test at 24 weeks for both hiv 1 and 2 elsa (pretty much 6 months)

Since dec. of 06 No sexual intercourse whatsoever, No Oral, no sex, just a few times of getting a handjob

for the last 10 months though i have had things that have never happened to me whatsoever which makes this so confusing, I got Tinea, Roscea, Hives, and now i i'm p retty sure i have genital warts (going to dr. soon to make sure), Everytime i got to the dr. for something they tell me what i have and then it all goes back to HIV, I just can't get it out of my head.  I am def. open to anxiety and that the web is the worst place to go.  I am not even sure what response i am looking for, but it just doesn't make any sense



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425289 tn?1207234724
Wow, I didn't even know it was masturbation...Just saw 24 weeks and negative. :P
It doesn't matter what it was, any negative past 12 weeks is going to be 100% accurate. (In fact, virtually everyone tests positive by 4-6 weeks... who doesn't have a compromised immune system).

Masturbation is absolutely no risk. Dr HHH and EWH have said before, in the 30 years of the HIV epidemic, not one person has probably been infected by HIV from masturbation.
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You were never at risk of contracting HIV via masturbation or getting vaginal fluids on a scabe.
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425289 tn?1207234724
You can seek help by speaking to your family doctor about your anxiety.
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425289 tn?1207234724
You do NOT need anymore HIV testing. siteheld means, make sure that the person you decide to have sex with is tested for HIV and other STDs before you have sex with them (which anyone who has sex should do anyways!!).

PAZIG, I highly urge you to seek help for your HIV anxiety. It is debilitating to continue to worry, especially when you have a conclusive HIV test result. Please, for your own health, seek support to move on. I promise you that you do not have HIV from the incident you are worrying about.
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People with OCD will aways think that they can get HIV from the most weird places and situations. So from now on get the person tested before you you get close. Maybe that will help you or maybe not. HIV can't pass through broken skin.
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what do you mean?  I should get tested?
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Now that you know you have OCD make sure you get the person tested before you get that close to him or her. HIV can't pass through unbroken skin.
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425289 tn?1207234724
You definitely need help psychologically. You're not the only one, HIV anxiety is very common (most people on this forum are experiencing it) and if you cannot accept that you are negative then you need some help to get over it with counselling. Believe me, you are HIV negative.

Here is something that Dr. HHH posted that may be helpful to many people on this forum:

Most people do not understand how difficult it is to transmit HIV through sex, compared to most infections, including all other STDs.  Mainlining HIV -- that is, direct exposure of infected blood into another person's bloodstream (or an infected organ transplant) -- is the only highly efficient transmission mechanism.  Even childbirth is less risky; most babies born to infected mothers don't catch the virus.  Even though it seems to the nonprofesional that other potential blood exposures might also be efficient transmission mechanisms, they are not.  It is rare that someone is infected because a cut, an inflamed skin lesion, or an oral sore is exposed during sex.

By far the highest risk sexual exposure is anal sex.  If the insertive partner (the "top" in gay parlance) has HIV, the risk for the receptive partner ("bottom") averages 1%, i.e. one transmission per 100 events.  The risk has been estimated at 1 in 200 in the opposite direction, i.e. the risk for the anal top if bottom has HIV.  Transmission by vaginal intercourse is estimated as being 10 times lower, i.e. 1 in 1,000 to 2,000 events.

Therefore, even in the highest risk encounters -- when one partner is known to have HIV (and is not on treatment for it) -- most exposed people dodge the bullet.

Can other things increase those risks? Absolutely yes.  Those risks are higher when a partner is uncircumsized, when either partner has another STD (especially herpes), or when there are cuts or other skin defects in either partner.  But those factors typically only double the risk.  "Double" sounds big, but it is not:  doubling a risk of, say, 1 in 1,000 still means that for every 500 events, only one transmission will occur.

Finally, one more point.  Some questioners on this forum assume that if an escort or other apparent high risk partner insists that clients use condoms, it means s/he is infected.  The opposite probably is true most of the time:  insisting on condoms more often means s/he is uninfected and is trying to stay that way.  Statistically, commercial sex workers are at higher risk of HIV from their clients than their customers are from them.
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Thank you very much, I have always been a self independant person, but i think it might be time for me to admitt that i need some sort of help psychologically.  I read these forums and will think "wow how can that guy really think he has it, common sense would tell him that he is fine" but then i find myself acting just like him but yet i can't make the same connection.  
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461503 tn?1212066010
Sorry to hear you are still worried, unfortunaly this is very common, is more common the hiv by the way, you have FEAR OF HIV OCD, you need to seek for help from a therapist, this is the only way you`ll be able to deal with this fears and move on, YOU DONT HAVE HIV, it doesnt matter what symptoms or illness you have they are not related with HIV.

Hope it helps
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move on; you do not have HIV
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