I am surprised as a midwife you don't know there was no risk to you. You should ask your management for training on HIV with regards to your job. I am not being insulting in saying that but you ,like me and many on here have an unrealistic fear of catching HIV, by the way we thought we had come into contact with HIV.
My wife is a midwife she told me once that babies have been breast feed by HIV positive mothers and never caught it. You would have to drink gallons and gallons of breast milk to catch HIV, a cut on your hand would have to be fresh and bleeding at the time of exposure, but breast milk does not carry enough viral load. It like saliva, you don't catch HIV from kissing, it does not carry enough viral load to infect you, unless you drink gallons of it. yuk
Get that training/ information and come back and tell us you were at ZERO risk.
You will also be able to as a midwife, check the mothers medical notes for HIV.
Maybe Teak will agree with this post?
Thank you so much for replying.. thought it was anxiety. But can you tell me, are my symptoms suggestive of ars?
No, you would not have gotten an exposure by helping a woman breastfeed. It's anxiety.