doomed????

[desertGK]

I'm pretty sure that I've ruined my life, yet there is still some (vain) hope left in me. On July 5th I had sex with Ethiopian prostitute in Dubai, under heavy influence of alcohol and to my horror, during intercourse, the condom broke, exposing my penis fully. I think it must have been broken for less than a minute or so when I noticed. I pulled out immediately, changed it for the new one and continued sex until I saw some blood, when I stopped. The girl told me it was about her period time. I just went silent, shocked. She told she takes care of herself, but of course I was not convinced. As if I was hit by lightning. Two days after the initial shock, I started googling for symptoms and as you might guess it didn't help me. 3 days post exposure, mad as I was I took PCR test, and if I only knew for it at that time I'd ask for PEP (in Dubai, they're quite strict about HIV, I had to give my passport details in order to take the test). One week after, it came back negative (as it would in any case so early). In the meantime, I started feeling all the anxiety because of what I've done, bad sleep, burning hands, was drinking heavily to ease my mind, felt tingling on the face etc. My palms started sweating profusely, and as my hands are stretched over the keyboard at least 10hr per day meaty parts of the palms, opposite thumbs got red. It soon developed to rash, the same one as described on numerous symptom sites: small reddish to purple spots. It’s affecting my fingertips as well but it seems it fades away when I’m not thinking much about HIV. When I’m looking at palms exposed to direct light I can see small blood vessels changing colour from pale to red!!!! I really hope it’s reaction to sweat and stress, I’ve never had anything similar. Week after the onset of rash, skin on my palms started peeling off.  Now it seems it calmed down (approximately 3 weeks after the start of rash), and it is what scares me the most, it perfectly fits in ARS timing. Also, I had swollen glands in neck (under the jaw) for 5-6 days, somewhere around week 3. No other symptoms except one pea sized gland on the lover left side of the neck.
I know that the only way to know the truth is to get tested, next week I’m going back to my home country for the 6 week test. Is there any hope??? Please HEEEELP!!!!!!
gox

[desertGK]

You're very kind and I thank you once more. I'm really giving my best to remain calm.....however, to often I remember the quote that palm rash followed by skin peeling is one of the ARS symptoms. Only thing that gives me a bit of comfort is that I didn't have any fever yet.

[desertGK]

Thanx, for the prompt answer. Would you consider my palm rash + peeling skin as symptom of ARS, as suggested on some other websites. My tongue also became hairy, specially deeper towards the throat:-( I'm desparate.

[Teak]

No and like I said don't go symptom hunting.

[Teak]

It's harder to transmit HIV from a woman to a man. Your exposure was brief but still a risk. Most people will test positive by 6 weeks but it takes 3 months to obtain your conclusive result. It the meantime don't symptom hunt because HIV has no specific symptoms and stay productively busy until you have tested.