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i am tottally lost
I have sex with pros in 2009... I wear condom... But I don't know if the condom broke or got hole... After I have sex in about 2 weeks later I have pain while urinating. The intercourse with pros is in april 2009... I go to clinic and doc said it is an infection. Doc give me antibiotic and it went away in 2 weeks. The doc ask me to do hiv test. But I am to scared at that time. But in august 2009 I go to lab to do hiv test. The result is non reactive. The lab dr told me to come again in 6th month and one year mark. I never go retest. In about december 2009 I discover lymph node in my neck. They are painless. Small about 1cm. I google that might be shotty lymph node and might be related to hiv. I don't know what to do now... I am going to be married this april and in my country before marry have to take hiv test. I don't know how reliable my hiv elisa test before because this shotty lump I can feel in my neck. I just have only one elisa test after 3months... While others have so many test... I just very scared because next monday I have to go another government hiv test before marry... I am so scared if it turn to positive. I am really scared now. I am living in anxiety this past years... I am scared.
I don't want to take another test because the anxiety. But here in my country hiv test is compulsory for people who want to get married. I am going to get married this april. So I have to make the test on this monday. Now all the guilt I feel. I never had any sex with my soon will be wife. But malaysian rule is to take hiv test before you get married. I just hope everything is going to be fine. I am scared to death now.
The more times you take HIV test, the more likely you're going to get a FALSE positive and this will make your mind spin even worse. Symptoms are nothing, consult a doctor for that or seek mental help if HIV anxiety is your problem.
I ve been looking for symptoms in my body... Sometimes I feel something stuck in my throat... I see the mirror my back of tounge is white and got bumps that make me feel something stuck... Sometimes I got rashes that not each mostly in my arm... All this thing making me very scared... I want to move on... But this thing just making me feel scared... Next monday will be my final day... I have to go to hiv screen test... I can't sleep...
You are negative unless you had unprotected anal or vaginal sex that you haven't mentioned.
I am trying to move on. But this lump in my neck making me anxious each and everyday... I hope I am really hiv negative...
Had the condom failed you would have known without a doubt. There is no guess work in condom failures. Condoms when they fail, fail catastrophically.
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