Okay plz help me out here. I hadn't had sex in 6 mnths with my bf because I have trust issues n hiv anxiety. I finally had sex with him but used a condom. Checkd at the end if it was torn but no the sperm was all there but what if there was like needle size holes I didn't see. I went with an hiv counselor n she said she couldn't test me because I wasn't at risk and I used a condom that was safe sex. He did oral vagina on me but like for 5 min. I'm so scared I wish I could go back in time and jst stayed without having sex. My counselor said its normal to have sex as long as I use protection. I jst feel like crying, I have a baby girl and I dnt want to get hiv n die I want to live a long time for her.