need honest answers

[bearsdb22]

Im white male 21 and stupidly had intoxicated unprotected vaginal with a girl I later found out has been with 20 guys from her. it was about 25-40 minutes and I stopped!  3 wks later woke up with red rash on head of my penis was there for almost 2 mths. it was red bumps. a week later I got sick(4wks after). white spots on my tonsils,pink eye, mild fever off and on, cough, swollen glands and lymph nodes in my neck, and one behind my ear and diarrah. also I started having pain in testies and after getting off. I had a negitive strep and mono spot test, but too ammox just in case. it went away in about 3 days,but have had a sore throat for 3 months and swollen tonsils and glands and SOB or at least pressure in chest area that comes and goes. also I get these red blood spots on the inside of my cheeks. they will be there for a few days then there gone and come back. seem to always be gone when I go to docs. tests are as follows:
8wks negitive HIV rapid
neg chalymdia,Gon, trich
9weeks neg HIV
10 wks neg HIV,HEPB,shyphilis,normal CBC
11 wks undetec. Viral load
14 wks neg HIV
15 wks neg HIV.
Docs tell me I need to retest at 6 months
Questions:
1) would the ammox I took before the chalymdia,Gon, Trich test killed it if it was there, which would have made me test negitive. it was urinalysis doc thought I had it bc of pain after ejac and in testies.

2)what could cause the red blood spots inside cheeks that come and go
3) could I still be going through seroconversion, should I be concerend with HEP C

4 does HIV casue a rash on head of penis,could it?
5)is there still a chance this might be HIV, please be honest, ARS?

6) would a rapid mono test pick up EBV? also if that was the cause woldnt my current GF have it
7) my current GF/fiance has been tested and negitive when is the point we can go back to having unprotected sex ? she is on BC
what would you look for ?
HEP A, C, D????
please elaberate as much as you can and please be honest .thank you ive read CDC stats

docters want to re test at 6 months.

[bearsdb22]

Teak What do you mean BS? dont understand? please explain

[Teak]

BS.

[bearsdb22]

Why are my posts being deleted I dont understand! Please help me guys. if you wont post why here please send me a PM. thank you im confused? Do I need more testing or not? Doctor HHH seems to think so

[Frank303]

Good to see you have seen a counsellor Bear.
I was offered on by my work after a needlestick injury. I thought I didn't need one. Bad decision of mine I think

[Xhost]

I so wish I could help you, Bears, but I am not certain that I can. I do understand that you have convinced yourself that you have HIV, or may have HIV, even though the hard medical fact is that you do not, as evidenced by all of your negative tests. The tests are what you have to go by, not your feelings, not your hunch. Your feelings are doing you a disservice here.

I also know it must bother you a little to hear that you need counseling, when you truly believe that you have a medical issue. I am glad that you have someone to discuss this with, as this forum is not really conducive to those types of conversation, and no one here can help you with whatever it is you are dealing with better than a trained therapist, anyway. And sure, keep seeing your regular doctor, if only to keep him or her apprised of your situation.

So, what do I have say? Not much more than I already have said. You feel something is going on with your body. Ok, I accept that. But, whatever is going on, it has nothing to do with HIV. Again, the tests you have taken, all negative, prove that. My guess is that you will start to feel better once you accept that fact. It may take a while, but I hope that you can one day. You don't deserve to feel this way, no one does.

Keep working with your therapist. If you do not feel like this is achieving the result that you want, then find another therapist. As for the medication, I understand it can be a drag to take medication on a regular basis. Again, if you do not feel it is helping, ask to switch to something else - if you have only been taking it for a short period of time, then give it some time to work.

There is answer out there for you. My feeling is that you will find it in the therapist's office rather than your doctor's office. And that is what I think.

Good luck to you, Bears. It'll get better, just give it some time. In the meantime, you take care of yourself.

[bearsdb22]

counceling is okay . I have suched mixed feelings I feel like I need medical help, counceling is good so I can talk to someone but I dont believe that is my problem. I ahve been on so much anxiety medicene that it is not funny and I am tired of takeing medicene constantly. I feel like I need medical answers and doctors dont even give me that I have been to several doctors. and get nothing. Yes I ahve had several negitivve tests but the symptoms are still there. and there not going anywhere. I have lylmph nodes swollen in my neck, behind my ears, and Im pretty sure under my arms now to,groin and under my chin.

I tell and show these to the doctors, but get no answers. i just get them saying:

" Well they are always there in my body, your body, and everyone elses body" but I can acually feel mine, all of my friends and family you cannot. well at leastr not like mine. they are not to the point where you can just look and see them, but you can def. feel them in various places. like I have said before they are about the size of a pea.

at times I almost completely forget about it "the topic of potentually HIV" and I almost feel back to myself again. but almost every evening I start to have cold chills or cold sweats. and always start to feel nasueated. today I started feeling like my stomach wes upset when I was driving back to my college from seeing my family and it was. I threw up 6 times.

its been 4 months from the time of the "incident" 3 months since symptoms started
(OCT 26 I know b/c I had to be somewhere important the next morning). some people tell me symptoms of HIV dont last that long, but others tell me yes the can. please help clarify this for me if you can. also I try and think" hey I had a negitive viral load at 11 weeks past, but then I think of all the people that have negitive viral loads (multiple times)
but then months later end up testing postive on antibody tests and then "slam" have a viral load. I try and tell myself if my nodes have been swollen for 3 months I would have to have detectable antibodies "if" my prob was HIV. (please help here to please) but then I Dont know im only a pre med student and although I have done extensive research for hiv since I got sick after the inceident but I dont know these answers and cant find them anywhere. please if you can help me please answer and clarify this stuff. I just dont see how this can be some freak thing.

Have unprotected oral and vaginal(one time thing) , 3 wks later rash on head of penis, wk later sick with illness described above. and has been sick ever since. I dont think I have gotten a rash anywhere other than the head of my penis. and the pain after ejaculation. other then some brown freckle like spots and new moles when I have never had any moles and the red spots in my mouth insid emy cheeks.


sorry for it being so long. please clarify as much as possiable. I had another negitive orasure mouth swab on last thursday(21st).