oral risk

[justneedpeace940]

in october i let a man i know perform oral sex on me, i am also male, i was worried over hiv so got tested thru lab elisa test at 8 weeks and was neg, still was worried so i had a point of care test using insti 1/2 at 15 weeks and again at 16 weeks, the nurse pricked my finger and did her thing, one dot for neg is wat i got both at 15 and 16 weeks am i conclusively negative, plz im so worried.

[justneedpeace940]

im trying so hard to accept my negative, but it is so hard, i want to let it go so bad why cant i just let it go, any comments on how others got thru it, i wouldnt mind hearing them, but again thanks to all that commented. it was a few days short of 5 months, and in canada the window period is 12 weeks, so i do not have to test at 6 months to a year, can anyone disclaim that, ive heard so many different things that i am fine testing 12 weeks after, see i lived thru an actual scare last year 10 months to be exact where i slept with some one that i found out had hiv, and it was unprotected i did the test up to 12 weeks and it was negative got another test in october and another in november n another in december 8 weeks after i received oral, and now its been five months since and my test was negative, teak or joggen or whom ever, can u tell me aslong as i remain faithful to my partner i will remain negative, and i can resume having unprotected sex with my partner, i shouldnt of cheated twice one was an actual scare the one i was telling u about earlier in my comment and the other was in october and i had so many tests rapid n elisa lab test and they all came back negative, the reason im scared is cause im slowing losing weight etc but my anxiety is sky high so that could be the calperate right. please u all are all i have. and i just need to put this behind me some how, any ideas would help thanks

[justneedpeace940]

thanks nursegirl6572 i appreciate it, ill try to focus on my mental health a lil more and try not to dwell on it, 5 months tested and it was negative is about 100% as im going to get and im trying to tell myself that over n over again, its like a devil in my hear telling me these things creating this phobia, but again thanks i appreciate ur comment

[nursegirl6572]

You're going to get yourself banned.

How many different people have to tell you the same thing over and over before you'll believe it?  How many NEG test results do you need before you'll accept them?  The answer to both of those is "there will never be enough" because you have developed an unhealthy phobia/anxiety about this.  You can continue testing, but the anxiety will always convince you the test wasn't right, the nurse didn't DO it right...something.  You'll continue to test until you finally receive a false positive, which will throw you right over the edge.

You did NOT have a risk, do NOT have HIV, and you have MORE than solid proof in your over-testing that proves that.  You said you sought professional help for your mental health?  THAT is what you need to be focusing 100% of your energies on...b/c not treated, believe me...things like this can be life changing with the anxiety getting out of control.  It's a very real disorder...and you're only delaying help for yourself by continuing to dwell on HIV concerns rather than dive into help for your anxiety.

NO RISK, NO HIV, ANXIETY AND PHOBIC THINKING.

[justneedpeace940]

anymore comments, i just need words of encouragement, i wanna believe the test, but its hard, but anywho sorry for all the post, i truly am, u all are all i got, so again sorry for all the posts.

[justneedpeace940]

thanks for ur comment getitright77

[RainLover71]

Yes 100% negative.