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Should i stop testing, i am crushed by fear
Hello guys,
I have have risky exposure, unprotected vaginal sex, with a woman of unknown HIV status. She told me she never suspected in it but never tested. Anyways, i tested 7 times, 4 times in VCT office here in Montenegro (EU) 2 times in private microbiology lab,and once donated blood.
10 weeks ECLIA 0.7 negative
11 weeks 3rd gen rapid negative
82 days 3rd gen rapid negative
152 days 3rd gen rapid negaive
206 days ECLIA 0.3 negative
then after almost 9 calendar months donated blood no one called
and finnaly after almost 20 months 3rd gen rapid test also negative
Now my worries are when they were using rapid tests at VCT clinic, they stabbed my finger and squeeze it so blood droped directly into the small hole, then they added few drops of some liquid and test showed negative after 25 minutes of waiting. I somehow developed a fear that because they didnt use pipette test is false negative even after almost 2 years. Councelors in VCT office assured me that there is no need for pipette to be used. Am i getting paranoid over nothing? To my logic is if you do something wrong with the test it will show NOT VALID result am i right? Can i move on from this? Best regards.
I have have risky exposure, unprotected vaginal sex, with a woman of unknown HIV status. She told me she never suspected in it but never tested. Anyways, i tested 7 times, 4 times in VCT office here in Montenegro (EU) 2 times in private microbiology lab,and once donated blood.
10 weeks ECLIA 0.7 negative
11 weeks 3rd gen rapid negative
82 days 3rd gen rapid negative
152 days 3rd gen rapid negaive
206 days ECLIA 0.3 negative
then after almost 9 calendar months donated blood no one called
and finnaly after almost 20 months 3rd gen rapid test also negative
Now my worries are when they were using rapid tests at VCT clinic, they stabbed my finger and squeeze it so blood droped directly into the small hole, then they added few drops of some liquid and test showed negative after 25 minutes of waiting. I somehow developed a fear that because they didnt use pipette test is false negative even after almost 2 years. Councelors in VCT office assured me that there is no need for pipette to be used. Am i getting paranoid over nothing? To my logic is if you do something wrong with the test it will show NOT VALID result am i right? Can i move on from this? Best regards.
Thank you my friend. I hope i will beat this anxiety that makes me catastrophize every little thing...
I never doubted that.
Your VCT office had absolute confidence you were negative.
I wish you all the best.
Your VCT office had absolute confidence you were negative.
I wish you all the best.
Well i was refered to donate blood from my VCT office. I was not going to donate blood as the way of getting tested. I would never jeopardize others.
Good.
Your negative test's prove you were negative and you were able to donate blood.
You should NEVER donate blood as the initial test.
But you proved you were negative before and our now helping others.
Take care.
Your negative test's prove you were negative and you were able to donate blood.
You should NEVER donate blood as the initial test.
But you proved you were negative before and our now helping others.
Take care.
Thanks for your post sharkoboy. I will definitely have to move toward being happy about everything. It was just that fear of even thinking about it was enough. Not to mention that i was closely monitoring every bodily signal and interpreting it as HIV. It was so severe that it was going to a level where i was certain not to have HIV, but that i have started developing Kaposi lessions. Dr HHH stated in one of his posts that in males, straight ones like i am, those almost never happen, and yet i was panicking. "Oh god look at that slight discoloration it must be KS." Now i have to do exactly what you said, and rest of folk commenting, leave it behind me and fight off irrational fears. I should be happy to dodge the bullet.
You should be really happy and remember there are millions of people in this world who have never tested and don't know their status. You do!
You ARE negative!
You ARE negative!
Thank you Vance, now i gota go strugle with negative thoughts and anxiety attacks :D
@Vance2335
I told them i feel a bit anxious so they show me the entire process of testing and how test fills with some blue color and showing that one red line under C letter. I was curious why are they not using pipettes but they said there is no need to use pipette. I guess they also wanted me to be anxiety free.My entire anxiety is based under thing that they might have used too little or too much blood or something like that. But then they said they always check if test is valid and if test shows valid they are waiting for results to show up. They also told me that in HIV+ people those test almost instantly show they are positive. So i guess i have to move on and let it go behind me right?
I told them i feel a bit anxious so they show me the entire process of testing and how test fills with some blue color and showing that one red line under C letter. I was curious why are they not using pipettes but they said there is no need to use pipette. I guess they also wanted me to be anxiety free.My entire anxiety is based under thing that they might have used too little or too much blood or something like that. But then they said they always check if test is valid and if test shows valid they are waiting for results to show up. They also told me that in HIV+ people those test almost instantly show they are positive. So i guess i have to move on and let it go behind me right?
If there was a lab error they would have contacted you and said they need another sample.
So i guess my mind is then playing tricks on me making me believe i am victim of lab error which if occur would make test show NOT VALID result am i right?
You have anxiety issues. A common symptom of anxiety is to feel that there is something very wrong with you. HIV is an easy target for anxious people as it comes automatically with what many people still see as a death sentence (although in Western countries it is now possible to live a full life span with the condition). Often once HIV is discounted you will start thinking of cancer or some other life shortening disease, I recommend counseling to help.
Thank you for your quick response guys, i was afraid they can make an error if not using pipette, but i guess i am just paranoid.
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