Been Gone Chickening out of treatment

[doglover28]

Hi All,
I haven't been on in a long time. I had my biopsy and it went smooth.  Find out the results tomorrow.  They wouldn't tell me over the phone.  The PA would confirm that I don't have chirossis.  Anyway, I've been a freak case since day one of being diagnosed and playing this stupid waiting game.  When the PA called me it was to discuss putting me in a stuyd for the VX-950? good stuff that's out. I didn't quailify because my enzymes have only been slightly elevated once.  Anyway, I begged her to give me my results, and she said Duke has a policy of not giving them over the phone.  I told her that I was preparing to quit my job and I needed to know how bad of shape my liver was in.  She said, I can tell you this, you don't have chirossis, and you have plenty of time for a career change.  What's that suppose to mean...am I a 1, 2, 3?  Guess I'll find out tomorrow.  Anyway, I did quit my job, and I have had the worse panic attacks since.  I finally had to call the doctor and get put on Ativan along with my AD.  Maybe the AD is contributing to the panic. I have no clue. Thanks for listening to my rambling. Oh..to top it off, my dad got diagnosed with inoperable prostate cancer.

[chellski]

we must've posted at same time...how are you?  hows your ex hub? i hope the kids are ok, have you told them about your hepc yet?  when i told my kids, it was very hard since it was just a year since my husband died - he had hep-c but was not the sole reason for his death - but i could not convince my kids that.. they were very angry and scared, but we have all come thru it...and hopefully, life goes on..
michelle

[chellski]

so sorry about your dad.  i think all of us who have been thru being dx with hep-c realize its always a waiting game...some of us never get used to the waiting...i still panic from the time i get my blood work til the results are in....i have always suffered from panic attacks, but did okay during treatment...i was on a/d (zoloft) and also klonopin (anti-anxiety)...the zoloft has a bit of a calming effect and i found it helpful during tx....good luck with your biopsy and keep in touch.

[merlino]

Hi, I have been wondering how you were. So sorry to hear about you Dad. I has anxiety attacks many years ago and I know how horrible they can be. I am still tx in Oct. I know how frustrating it is waiting for results from all these different tests we have to go through. Hope things get better and I will say a prayer for your Dad.

[doglover28]

Thank you. My brother, sister and I are going to visit my dad. He lives in Indiana.  
The panic attacks that I had for four days made me realize I would have a hard time treating if treatment makes me feel anything like the panic attacks.

[friole]

Good luck tomorrow.  And I am so very sorry about your dad.  Enjoy your precious time.
kathy