I think that I should take a break from the boards...

[susan400]

I think that I need to leave the boards for awhile.  I apologize to everyone who I've been negative to lately.  I am not as selfish of a person as I may seem on here.  I do help others. My son, who is unable to reciprocate my love, who is seriously mentally ill, a friend with lung cancer, my cousin who has AML Leukemia, etc., etc.  I'm not all about me.  But, I feel that I am having trouble with being supportive with reguards to treatment and that makes it unfair to newbies.  I want to be supportive and everything that I say, if I'm truthful about it, does not seem supportive.  I'm having a hard time with it and need to quit coming on here for awhile.  I don't blame anyone for MY decision for treating all those times. I take full responsibility for my decisions and knowing the risks, I took them.  But, I can't stay on here and be honest about my experiences with lack of response to treatment and still sound encouraging.  When I can come back on here and be supportive without sounding so negative, I may be back.  But, I won't lie or sugar coat what happened to me.  That's not who I am.  I say the truth.  Finally, I think that treatment helps a lot of people and gives them SVR and protects their liver.  I still believe that. But, I do not think that it is best for everyone. I do not think that I made the right decision in doing the multiple treatments that I did.  In hindsight, I wish I had stopped at around the 3rd round.  Take care everyone.  I'll be thinking of you.

Susan

[anise]

I am sorry you won't be frequenting this site.  Truly I will miss you.  You had wonderful  interesting information post treatment.  If anyone knows about treatment, it is you, and I always respected your input.  You got me thinking.

I wish you luck in your life situations, I understand taking a break to deal with other family, etc. issues.  But let me tell you, you will be MISSED!

[GrandOak]

Sometimes purification means we have to go through the fire to remove the dross and the only way to the mountain top is through the valley (sometimes the one of shadows and death).

If we are never tested, we never know how far we have come and will not realize how much farther we've yet to go.  But we can rejoice in knowing that we will never be tested with more than we can handle and an escape is always provided.  Many of the fruits of the Spirit seem to only ripen under these trials.  Perhaps why Paul rejoiced when receiving them?

This may be a mystery to some, but somehow I think you understand.  Everything fits The Plan and our part was decided when the stars were being placed.

Last week I was led to Rev 12.  An interesting read, particularily since it talks about the red dragon, his defeat, his fall to roam the earth, and verse 11 in particular describes how it was achieved.  The part that really struck me about it were the many references to the red dragon and how hepos often describe our fight as battling the dragon.  Hence, in the passages, the red dragon becomes the blood dragon.

So take heart, realize that the battle is not entirely yours, and in the end:

Rom 8:26-33 [AMP] "Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered. And he that searcheth the hearts knoweth what is the mind of the Spirit, because he maketh intercession for the saints according to the will of God.  And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.  For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren. Moreover whom he did predestinate, them he also called: and whom he called, them he also justified: and whom he justified, them he also glorified.  What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us?  He that spared not his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things?  Who shall lay any thing to the charge of God's elect? It is God that justifieth."

[sfbaygirl]

Hey, how about us California folks, are we invited for dinner too? I am usually hungry on Friday night? What's for dinner?

[Mister beagle bailey]

Susan, Flguy said it best and I hope you return to the forum.  I can't imagine what your going through, with all your relapses.  Please reconsider leaving the forum.

Flguy and Doug-  Yes, there are many here from Florida.  Also ameritracy is from Fl and I bet there's many more.

Beagle

[DougV]

I know quite a few folks here in FL with hep.  Just for the record, if anyone is in my area and needs help with anything, ride to the doc, company, lunch, or heck, Friday's I generally cook a pretty elaborate meal and anyone is welcome with 24 hours notice, whatever, I'm available.  I guess I'm not allowed to post my email or phone number here but if someone wants it let me know I'm sure I can get it to them.  My stats are happily married, 17 year old son, male, had 22 29th birthdays, 1a, liver 3/3, relapser, compensated and symptom free, mildly insane.  I've also got experience with end stage care and hospice care as I kept my bro-in-law with me here for three months prior to his passing.  My wife is used to people calling and emailing with hep, both male and female so no problem there.  Well unless Angelina Jolie happens to have hep and calls, her well maybe she wouldn't be so cool about that.  I'm retired so time isn't much of an issue with me.  I do confess to being an odd duck, but a nice one. <grin>

Doug

[FlGuy]

There are a lot of us Florida folk including Susan, Beagle, Snook, I Will Beat and others.  I'm near Lauderdale.