DO YOU EVER FEEL LIKE THIS

[cierra2007]

Hi I want to thank everyone for being so honest very helpful to me.

I been in bed for must of the week ,very depressed sad I just feel Yuckieeeeeeeeee just sick.  
I was dignosed with severe depression a few years ago after many different meds for depression Effexor XR worked for me still on it today. I'm on week 12 of treatment Peg-Riba,  the PSY has increased the Effexor from 150 mg to 300 mg a day.

I'm trying not to fall into social isolation,
see you might thing i'm crazy but i hate people in general.  I feel like everybody is normal, they all smile at you  but they really don't know how you really feel inside.
I just hope that I'm making sense  right now I don't know anymore I just can't wait to finish with the
treatment. I just hate it, the meds the lab work the doctors oppt side effects.....

Thanks for reading my post I Guess I need it to let it out and vent.

Hoping to make to the end of treatment............

[nygirl7]

My doctor was very very strict that if I had a history of severe depression I would not be allowed to do treatment because the interferon does aggravate the condition so greatly people have become suicidal.  He insisted that even though I did not have a history of psychiatric disorder of any sort that I go on Paxill 20mg a month before treatment began so it had time to work.

If you have a very bad history with depression I'm honestly shocked that a doctor wouldn't be more proactive with your being prescribed different psych meds BEFORE treatment.

What you are experiencing has nothing to do with "typical" treatment situations at all.  You need to immediately speak to the hep doctor or your shrink doc.  Seriously you NEED medications to combat the effects of the interferon - it's the interferon that is causing your 10X worse than normal effects.

Please.........do it today.  Please.

[billstrong1969]

Wow!  You know sweetie, I am not having the best time with TX either!  It sucks donkey butt!  The SX's are just horrible with the headaches for me, inability to sleep, ect, ect...However, since I've started communicating and meeting people in this forum it has been a 180 degree turnaround because most everyone can RELATE to how you're feeling.  That was and still is HUGE for me!  I mean they say sometimes people feel no SX's at all and I'm like, must be rough for them!  LOL!  How can you NOT feel SX's from this ****?  But then I think to myself how awesome it is that I'm willing to put myself thru this at a chance to live longer!  This takes a STRONG person!  (Which is my last name by the way)  I take 150mg Effexor capsule in the morning and have a shrink appointment in about a month to determine if it needs to be increased.  I have only been on TX for 2 weeks now and each day that I make it thru considering how I'm feeling is just amazing to me.  Makes me feel encouraged enough to let others know in the forum who are starting out that they can do it too.  Do you take anything (prescription wise) for your SX's other than Effexor?  I know a lot of people in here are recovering addicts (and I've had my history as well) and refrain from taking anything because of that (to each their own and I can respect that) but it doesn't work for me like that.  My doctor and a had a long talk about that and agreed that an anti-anxiety medication (Ativan is what I take) would help me thru this as well as a narcotic for the excruciating headches (Vicoprophen) and it makes it bearable.  There are days when I hate the world and I'm lucky my partner doesn't throw me out in a snow ditch!  LOL!  But all in all it is the ability to share one another's experiences as well as a great doctor to make this as comfortable as possible regardless of my past issues that gets me thru everyday!  I'll add you to my friends list if you wanta chat again one on one!  HUGZ!

billstrong1969

[medicmommy]

Hello!
Remember, even Moses was a basket case! lol...and...MMOOONNIIIEEE!!! You have just been mooned by medicmommy...Hope it made you smile...(Needed a wide screen to do it...)lol

[comeagain]

You say you hate peoble in general. So do I, my self included. And my experience is that during tx its10 times stronger. But remember dear girl, that we are all fallen creatures totally fallen. lets try to look at each other not bye the flesh but bye the spirit instead, if possible.





ps. love your spirit

[alagirl]

cierra, You're not crazy if it's true...
seriously though, you're allowed to be a misanthrope during treatment.  Treatment sux.  The doctors, the meds, the sx, the labs, pretty much everything you mentioned and more.  And people DO smile at you like they know how you feel when they don't.  That's why I spend a great deal of my treatment time alone in my bedroom.  

Sometimes an increase in antidepressants, or the addition of another antidepressant to the mix helps, so try that if nothing gets better, but sometimes in a few days things are better.  For me, things tend to ebb and flow in terms of my emotions.

[sfwandwow]

just keep faith it will get better