I Am So Confused...

[singinbeauty]

Hello - A little back story before my question... As far as I can troll I have never had an outbreak of either oral or genital herpes. I have always gotten bumps near my lips around my period that I attributed to acne and I have always had bumps in the hair on my genitals that I have attributed to the course hair (I learned a LONG time ago that shaving just created pain). Now, until recently I hadn't had a partner in 4 years. My current guy and I have been dating for a month. About two weeks into it I decided to get tested for std's and thankfully all came back negative except one. Herpes. Or at least the possibility of it.

My test results were possitive for the IgM but negative for for both type secific IgG's. I have read on here more than a few times that IgM tests should be ignored. And I would SO love to believe this. Since my last partner was 4 years ago - if my current guy comes back negetive is this a good sign?

I have an extreme anxiety issue and had to recently go on Xanex because of this stress - any help is appreciated!

[singinbeauty]

Thank you so much for your reassurance, Grace. Your wisdom and willingness to help neurotics such as myself will bring you MANY blessings. I think with all the anxiety I have developed a rash or something by not taking good care of myself + with all the checking I have been doing. There are a few red bumps in the crease between my thigh and groin which don't seem to be painful and really only itched or felt irritated while I was laying in bed yesterday and it was uncomfortably warm / sweaty. They also ended up feeling better and reducing in size / discomfort when I held a cool wet cloth against it. They haven't appeared to be blisters or ulcers and no fluid is apparent. They are right in the area where the pubic hair starts. From what I read on the dermatology forum this sounds like a fungal thing which would make sense considering the location.

Please tell me to stop worrying about this! I am seeing a GP tomorrow and if they aren't gone by then I will mention it to her but does this sound like herpes? I never get bumps INSIDE my vagina - always in the groin / thigh area and on the pubic mound. Does this mean anything?

Gosh, I just want to be done with this!!!!

[gracefromHHP]

learning to be calmer and to worry less about things is always a good thing :)  This will not be the worst thing to happen to you in life and we all need skills to get us through the rough spots!

really not everything is herpes. just  keep reminding yourself that :)

[singinbeauty]

And so - the anxiety continues... but it is less severe than when I first started on this board. Reading all the posts tends to calm me down which is a good thing I guess. Plus talking to the therapist is slowly helping though the relaxation techniques are going to take some getting used to.

I am tired of worrying about every bump I find - my IgG's came back negative with a 4 year stint in between partners... I have about had it! I just want to move forward. Oh, but I just can't... *sigh - God willing this will be over soon and I can leave this herpes scare BEHIND!

[singinbeauty]

In a month or so...

[gracefromHHP]

when can your bf repeat his own test results to be sure of his own status for sure?

[singinbeauty]

You are a Godsend - you know that? I have been sitting here fretting about this... ok, I will calm down. It could be anything, right? My IgG came back negative and I should hold onto that thought, right?