I have hsv-1 genitally which was confirmed via blood test and for the most part I am asymptomatic. When I have outbreaks I can't tell because I don't have the typical presentation of herpes. I do not get vesicular lesions. I am terribly worried that I may have transmitted this to my infant son soon after birth. He was born via c section. At the time of suspected transmission, he was still partially healing from a circumcision (7 days out). I used the bathroom, then I took the dog outside for a moment. I heard him crying and in the hustle to get to him, I can't recall if I washed my hands after I used the bathroom. I changed his diaper within 3-5 minutes of using the bathroom. I used wet wipes and used a gauze pad and coated it with vaseline. Within 4-5 days, I noticed what looked liked lesions on his glans penis. I recently started using antibiotic ointment to help with healing and was wondering could this have caused some contact dermatitis. When I discontinued the antibiotic ointment and switched back to vaseline, it began to clear up and heal. I took him to the doctors for a well check and mentioned to them about the lesions. They seemed to think that there was no way this could've happened, unless I had an active lesion on my hand (herpetic whitlow) with direct contact with him, which I don't have. At that time, they didn't feel like it was necessary to do any blood testing or cultures because the irritation had passed. Of course, they suggested if it happened again, to bring him in. He has never run a fever, feeding very well and is growing and developing appropriately. Typically, babies infected with HSV are lethargic, have a fever, have poor feeding, seizures, etc. He has not exhibited any of these associated symptoms. When the lesions were on his glans, he did not act like it was causing him any discomfort. I was wondering if I did transmit, was his presentation so mild due to the fact he received passive immunity from me. Often with it being a primary episode, it presents much worse. Everything I have read indicates if a newborn is infected shortly after birth, they are often hospitalized and receive IV antivirals for 14 days. I have read several places that the virus can't live longer than 10 seconds once it hits the air, then I have read other research that supports contradicting evidence. I am very worried that I may have unintentionally transmitted it to him. If this is the case, I will just die.