I contracted Hsv-1 on my genitals when i was 18 from what i believe was oral-genital contact that caused it..I had a terrible outbreak and went to the doctor..He confirmed visually that it was herpes and insisted on testing..The initial results came back negative..I went into denial from the results and went about my life..a couple months later i broke out again and tested positive for Hsv-1..
I am now 23 and have had only one outbreak in the last year, which went by in less than a week very fast and painless..It's been about a year since the last outbreak and I now have started dating again..I met this girl with whom the first night we met, had unprotected sex..It's been 3 mos. since then and we've been in a great monogamous relationship without any problems..After we met the first night however, I agreed to get tested for stds so we can have unprotected sex and they all came up negative..I did not get tested for herpes and I did not tell her that i had herpes when i was younger..
I feel like a scumbag. The stigma of having herpes is nothing compared to lying to this girl and possibly infecting her if I haven't already..She hasn't broke out or gotten infected and i haven't had any breakouts or any problems..i feel really bad that i've been lying about this. I'm really scared for the day that she does have a problem and I feel like i should lie again to cover up the fact...
My questions are..
In my case, how likely is it that I will infect her.. genital-oral or genital-genital..?
What are the chances I will re-infect myself if I do transmit this disease?
What is the best thing for me to do?