HPV virus ruining my relationship

[Sara4468]

Hi, I do not know much about herpes although I have it. I contracted HPV  when I was born, the HPV virus had been passed through my mother to me, and at the age of two I was taken to the hospital and had them laser removed. I have ugly scarring, both physical and emotional. Before, when I was very little (I'm talking like..ages three - six) I thought that maybe I was a boy, but as I grew older I had talked with my mother about it and found out what it was. I researched online and I was devastated. When I was little I had dreams of being married and living in a big house with four little children running around, but when I found out all that changed and I swore to myself that I would never hurt another person the way that I have been hurt , although it was passed to me unintentionally.. And I did not want to give them to my future children. So I've vowed to myself to be alone for the rest of my life. Very depressing, I know, but I came to terms with it. Then I met Austin. We have been together for quite a long time. After a while of being unfair to him and not giving him watch we both wanted, I told him why I was being so defensive. He cried with me and told me that he didn't care and still loved me anyway, that we would just have to be careful and use condoms.. It has been a while since that incident and recently he has started to express that he has been growing continuously frustrated because he feels we cannot do what normal couples do, it has been hard on me in the first place and now finding out that he is growing annoyed hurts. He is not at all mean about it but I can see that it is making him grow more and more agitated and putting a huge strain on our relationship. I am riddled with guilt and I don't know what to do.. I feel like he is my forever and sex is a huge factor in a relationship and I am taking that away from us.. What do I do?!
..please, any info will be helpful.. Internet searches can only get you so far.

[despicabledog]

Are you talking about herpes or HPV? Your first sentence is herpes then it's HPV. I thought HPV was passed to child during delivery as RRP and is rare? Did you mean after you were born, your mom transferred her genital wart to you by hand? Scared me to death again that we cannot have children anymore..

[43_quebecgirl]

Are you getting followed up by a doctor? Maybe it has been dormant for years ? All this worry for nothing?

[Fleetwood20]

Has he looked into the vaccines? Not something I know much about.

As you are in a dedicated relationship, is there an issue if he gets infected. Clearly preferable not to, but against an open sex life, it is worth considering.