I will try to make this short, but I am starting a relationship, and am hesitant to be very physical b/c of my fear that I have hpv, although never diagnosed. What I am wondering is if with my situation I should tell this girl, or not tell her and listen to all the doctors. My problem is, I would feel SO guilty if I ended up giving hpv to the girl, and not at least telling her there's a possibility. I don't want to make a big deal over something that might be nothing with her, but don't want to not tell her and then she gets something and I feel guilty.
I have had a rash on my scrotum for over a year now that I fear has to be hpv. It started off mean red, then after steroid creams and jock itch creams, etc. it is now a softer red/pink. It has a defined line at the bottom of it where you can see the obvious red and then normal skin at the very bottom of the scrotum. I have seen 2 STD doctors (tested for all std's, except herpes (blood test) and hpv obviously- everything negative), 2 Dermatologists,and a nurse practitioner. They have all told me either that A) it's normal (but idk defined red line and red scrotum is not) B) Irritant dermititis (for over a year, really?) C) NOT an STD.
I have small bumps in my rashy area that are very small and I have to strech my skin and the light hits it right. They are small little bumps and I think they are HPV. I tried showing them to the dermotologist and he told me they are sebacious glands. However, that skin has not looked normal for over a year now. I personally think it is hpv because I had protected sex with a girl 4-5 years ago and woke up with a burning sensation at the base of my shaft/top of scrotum (then nothing developed), but they all pass it off like it's nothing, and no medicine they prescribe makes it go away. Another suspicion is that, the girlfriend at the time a year ago, I had unprotected sex with once, and she got very sick afterwards. She had only 1 sex partner before me and a boyfriend after me. I know she gets tested every september for HPV. We had broken up and not talked for months, and near the end of september she all the sudden starts talking to me and is all depressed and says guys are douches. I personally fear that I gave her hpv and she blamed him. Things were too bad between us for me to straight up ask her.
Those are the main things that make me believe I have hpv, but the doctors do not think so. I STILL have a red rash type scrotum. Do I tell this girl that I possibly have hpv? Do I not tell her and then possibly feel extremely guilty down the road?? I am looking for forever, so I am wanting to truly form trust and an honest relationship. I am to the point where I am OK if I have hpv, I just am tired of this being there with no solution!! Opinions?
Thank you!!