I am a 40 year old female, who married the live of my life 17 years ago. Life was grand, and then smack....after 15 years of marriage, I find out that my husband was having an affair. I have been seep rated and divorced now for a total if 26 months. I met someone about 13 months ago, and from what I understand we are in a monogamist relationship. So, how did I get this? I feel dirty, ashamed, filthy....
Abnormal pap on 2/7
Follow up visit in 4/11- found out then that I was positive for HPV.
Colposcopy on 4/11- still waiting for results. Doctor did say that she was very UNDER IMPRESSED with my cervix. That's a good sign, right? However, I've experienced, low back pain, urge to urinate more often, chills. All these symptoms point the finger at cervical cancer. Ugh!!! I have had the absolute worst 2.5 years of my life. I lost my mother in December, 2011, husband leaves me 1/2014, and my grandmother just passed in 2/2014 now this!!! I wanted to celebrate my fictitious New Years ( was starting with a clean slate) and my birthday this April! : (. Any advise, suggestions and support would be greatly appreciated. And please if anyone has experienced any of the symptoms that I did, please share your story with me.
Thank you,