Warning, a pretty lengthy post.
My name is Ash. I have bad endometriosis ( as well as severe fibromyalgia ) and have suffered from both for many years. I have tried many BC types which halts bleeding aside some spotting, but if I ever miss a nuva ring switch out, as I have to every 3 weeks without breaks, the endo flare is excruciating. Which used to not be so bad during my nuva ring use. Even aside this I have constant cramping anyway and pms symptoms 24/7. Which makes my fibro flares constant as well. And the weight from meds and hormones is so hard to shed, especially with the pain.
My skin always feels like it's crawling and I am always so moody. I have tried so many antidepressants and anxiety meds/mood stabilizers for years. It is so taxing on my mind and body. None work, make it worse. Or work for a very short time. I have constant insomnia and anemia. And have ongoing infections that required several uncomfortable procedures. I've also had 3 laps done but of course it grows back, and with webby Asherman's syndrome.
I used to want kids but everyone in my family is sick in some way. Mom has fibro and other issues, dad passed from heart attack, aunt died from cancer, cousin has endo, uncle died from a stroke, diabetes in others, mental disorders and so on and so on. And I was born with hip displasia and suffer from immune issues from birth. Also a slight chance I could get cancer due to issues.
I have no doubt some sickness would be passed on. As well as a possible miscarriage that I could mentally not handle. Aside the fact that with my fibro making me so weak ( was wheelchaired in July but now use a cane ) I am in no position to take care of a kid let alone myself. At this point I shower once a week due to how painful the water is on my skin and how draining it is. Aside my bad depression and anxiety and diabilitating mental state.
Basically I am SO sick of all the meds, the surgeries, expensive natural supplements that I can not afford monthly. And I am mentally suffering. It is a hard decision and I will go through more therapy. But so many have found relief. I heard black cohosh can help a lot with hot flashes during menopause as well. Which I can try to afford. My doctor says it would be better to take the whole thing away as my ovaries would keep producing the endo, and possible ongoing pms symptoms. I feel my anxiety is more hormone based at this point. And am so sick of all the pills, although I get sick if I'm on nothing at all.
The constant pain, the flares, the never ending pms and lack of sleep. I can't take it and feel like I'm stuck. I know I will probably mourn, I hear that is normal. A part of me is still hesitant, but I want to get better for me now. And as it is I hardly have any quality of life. I am in daily perpetual hell. Could this help? :(