This may be premature but ...

[slenderthread]

Hello ...

   I went to my Doctor a week ago to just get my meds filled and he was concerned about my continued weight loss - which has been deliberate on my part actually, In any case, because I am a smoker, he had x-rays and the usual blood panels taken. Today the nurse called and said that my x-rays had come back, "abnormal." Also, my red blood cells were all 'wonky' ... my words, not hers. So this coming Thursday I'm going for a C.T. scan and honestly - I am just this side of terrified. My husband is still out of state and can't get back for approx. a month.  Other than the stress of living with my daughters and recently losing my 15 year old Pug - I can't say that I feel any different than I have for a very long time.
  I guess there is no question here after all. I imagine that I want someone to tell me everything is going to be alright; that it's going to turn out to be nothing - or that there is a lot of reason for hope if it should turn out otherwise. I know that no one can tell me those things .. not really. I realize that I tend to expect the worst - but I  never expected to face this possibility.
  Thank you if you actually took the time to read this ... I know you don't know me - but if you pray, please think of me! God Bless you all!!  

[allmymarbles]

Just to show you how phony medical statistics can be, a few years ago I kept track of what per cent of people had this, and what per cent of people had that, and what per cent were likely to get blah blah blah. After a couple of months I came to a very disturbing conclusion. It would seem that every person in the good old U S of A, man, woman, and child, was suffering from multiple ailments. I guess all the people around me, and myself, were aberrations, and notably un-American for flaunting our good health.

[slenderthread]

Thank you so VERY much for taking the time and compassion to respond to my post. Since you are the only one that did ... it makes it even that much more meaningful to me! Your post made me laugh - especially the part about how they like to tell us the death rate on the 4th of July!  ... It's sad, but oh so true! There hasn't been much in the way of smiles or laughter in my life recently ... I thank you for that as well - I truly do!
Again, thank you and God Bless!!

[allmymarbles]

My whole approach to life is not to worry about things that haven't happened. When I lived in an earthquake country, it did not occur to me that I might die in an earthquake. When I was pregnant I assumed the baby would be born healthy. Now maybe these are just my genes speaking for me, and if so they must be very strong genes, because here in America we are encouraged to worry about just about everything. They rage at you about plaque, and LDL, and pre-diabetes, etc., etc. If you are going driving on the Fourth of July they tell you what the death rate is for that date. You almost feel guilty if you don't worry.

Have your test, and go about your business. If bad luck strikes, you can deal with it then.

(By the way, you are a bit young for lung cancer.)