Just alittle sick n tired

[BeanBandit]

Sorry you guys, I'm just having one of those moments where I wanna break down and cry..... I'm just so sick of this illness. Right this very minute I'm so sick of the inflammation in the ears and head, tired of the headaches, tired of the intense pressure I feel in my ears and the thumping in left ear for 2 days that comes and goes like someone is flicking my ear drum...... and sometimes feels and sounds like I have a helicopter in my ear. I get scared at these times cuse this is alittle of what I had the night before my violent vertigo (disneyland tea cup ride I couldn't get off) and severe vomiting (my boyfriend described it like the girl in the exorcist) =( . And I don't EVER want that again. The pain, the inflammation, the feeling of dyeing and like I've been poisoned to death...... I can take it all, I just don't EVER want to go through that again....... for me it was the worst thing yet.

[ree427]

I understand.  I have those days quite often. I think this illness is so overwhelming due to all the symptoms. We have to keep the hope that this will get better.
It's interesting that you mentioned feeling poisoned to death because that's how I feel. I keep telling my doctor that I have a toxic feeling and nothing has helped it so far.
I hope you feel better soon. Take care.

[JackieCalifornia]

It's okay, it will get better.  You express this so well ... it must be very difficult to separate yourself from the symptoms, but you do it clearly.  I know on my really bad days, I couldn't always be me and not BE the disease.

Do you have dramamine or something to take for the vertigo?  I don't if that even helps.

I never had what you are going through, but I often found that decongestants would help my head.

You've come this far, and the bugz haven't taken you down yet.  Keep on keeping on.  

Post tomorrow and tells us how you are doing, okay?  Big hug!