I am so sad

[tata6684]

Hello everybody!!!

Its only been 2 weeks since i lost my baby and im very sad today! I know a new year is approaching wih new beginnings! I am still bleeding very lightly. my body still thinks im pregnant. Im just ready to get back to normal! i have been bleeding on and off the whole time i was prego. I need a break!!

Just needed to vent to people who understand. My friends dont understand how I feel it really ***** to wake up and just start crying almost everyday! I know it will get better with time since this is my 2nd one!  Thanks for listening!

[mumsy1977]

were in the same boat or simular anyway im waiting to have a d&c on 5th jan this is really hard as everyone wants to celabrate tonight and i really dont feel lke it it feels wrong:( i found out on weds my baby had gone to the angels its been a rough ride tbh i didnt tell mamy people biut my preg as i dint want to jinx it huufff some good that did the only people that knew were my best friend my partner and our parents ,we have 4 other kids and this was a very much wanted 5th child i didnt tell my kids either i wanted to get my 12 weeks over we planned on telling them tonight but it just wasnt meant to be my partner doesnt seem to understand as he saw the baby on the screen he thinks it should still be alive cos its still in there :( he sooo frustrated and my best mate just found out she preg with an unplanned unwated baby so im finding it hard to chat with her too right now .

i really cant wait for tonight to be over and done with its depressing me already ,a brand new start and the 1st thing i have to look forward to is a D&C anyway enough from me if you wanna chat just inbox me and al try to be there for you the best i can try and enjoy your night and think towards the future and hope you get a happy healthy preg in 2011 xx

[Cjfm12]

I know how u feel.  I couldn't function.  I couldn't watch a commercial with babies or pregnant people or pregnancy tests without having a crying fit.  I couldn't take the sad attempts by people trying to console me.  I know they have goo intentions but I was...still sad and most of all angry.  But, everyday it gets better.  You learn to smile again not only to make others feel comfortable but because you want too.  I have my moments when I feel my heart is breaking into a million pieces.  Christmas was hard.  Only a select few knew about my loss so everyone else would pester my husband and I about babies.  We survived three family gatherings with my mask intact.  Just remember or try to remember that you deserve to be happy.  Everyone does.  A new year means new beginnings.  That's what I am holding onto anyway.  All we have is hope. I wish you all the best and I am so sorry for the loss of your angel.

[jenkaye21]

So sorry sweetie, all i can say is that it WILL get better.  Think positive thoughts, and find a way to smile and laugh everyday.  We know what you're going thru, I know the suport of the ladies on this site has helped me so much!   So keep logging on and keep talking!  ((hugs))

[tata6684]

Thanks so much ladies. I really needed to talk to people who really understands..

Happy new year! May 2011 bring us happy healty babies! (hugs)

[anabel13]

i totally understand how u feel, 2 yrs ago i miscarried while i was 5 months pregnant , and the feeling is stll strong, i cry for my unborn everyday and december was a hard month for me cause thats the month i miscarried, but this year i found out i was pregnant and man what a joy its been, the pain in loosing my child will stay with me forever ,but now i have one reason to move on from that..u will learn how to cope with it belive me..sum time family memebers cant seem to understand but thats why there is support team out there that have been thru it and only we can understand eachother, but hang in there u will learn to live with it.. its hard yes it is.. but be strong ...

[Breneh]

I lost my baby girl at 5 months, too. January 19 is her birthday-1 year since we lost her. This holiday season has been incredibly difficult. I'm 36, and do not have many baby years left. Here's to hoping 2011 brings us all the bundle of joy we desire. Baby dust to you all!

[Flame3]

I feel for your loss.  I have not birthed my own children but have adopted 3.  I have had 12 miscarriages and I do understand what you're going through.  At first I thought it was a normal occurence.  Then I questioned God.  What did I do to deserve this?  Then I was extremely angry because all the women that would get pregnant and didn't wanted their babies.  Then I found God.  It is because of my faith that I am able to continue to try.  I know in my heart I am meant to birth a child.  I'm just trying to find out what I can do to help the process.  It does get easier and I wish you all the best in 2011 and a successful pregnancy.

[tata6684]

thank you ladies for your encourging words..2011 will bring us all happines. I have faith in god that he will provide for us all!