Just when I think I'm making progress

[roxy316]

It has been almost a month since my miscarriage/D & C and just when I think that I'm starting to feel better emotionally I break down again.  I know it has only been a month and I shouldn't rush the grieving process, but I just wish life would go back to normal.  I want the happy and confidant me back.  I feel like I am a different person now.  I'm sure this has left a scar that won't fade away completly, but I'm tired of being sad/angry/jealous all the time.  BFF pregnant and due any time and hard to talk to her now cause of pain.  Just wish I could fast forward through these trying times.  !st AF post miscarriage came today so I'm a little excited to try again, but also anxious.  Trying to remember there is a plan for me, but sometimes really hard.  We'll see how long it takes to conceive again, and if this one survives.  Really wish this hadn't happened my first time being pregnant.  Maybe I would be more hopeful for the future if I knew everything worked "down there".    

[needhelp24121]

It's been really hard for me keeping the faith since the miscarriage, I do feel a little betrayed sometimes. Whenever I feel like my faith is failing I like to think that my grandpa and sister are "up there" with my baby, watching over me and my family.

[shasy03]

I'm so sorry for your loss.  It took me over a year to get over the miscarriage and d&c from March of 09.  And I didn't fully get over it and I don't think I ever will.  The only thing that has helped me any was getting pregnant again.  It takes time you can't lose faith that one day it will happen.  

It eases my mind to think of my great grandparents (who I was really close to) rocking my baby to sleep...waiting for me to get to meet him/her.  It helped...everyone belives differently but that's just how it helps me.  

[roxy316]

thank you for all of your encouragement!

[needhelp24121]

I'm sorry for your loss. I had a natural miscarriage 7 weeks ago. It was my first pregnancy too. I am the same way, everytime I think I'm doing better I break down again. It's like I'm taking one step forward and two steps back. Time does heal all wounds, but wounds like this take awhile. I just take it one day at a time.

[Gracie0717]

So sorry for your loss. It does take sometime to heal. My d&c was in May and now it has been 3 months and I am finally returning to my old self. During this three months, it certainly has not been easy. It was my first pregnancy as well. Now I am waiting for my third af and then ttc. Of course, I will be anxious and nervous abd afraid that lightning will strike twice but I won't give up. Give yourself sometime to heal and don't rush it. Do not stop yourself from grieving.

Take care and good luck.

Grace

[ArmyPrincess819]

I'm sorry you feel this way. I wish I could take all your sadness away. The only thing that will ease it is time. In time you will find a way to manage your pain and tuck it away just far enough so you can try to feel happy again and full of life. It is still so new your wounds haven't had much time to heal. Although every woman heals at a different speed both emotionally or physically it's still so soon. Try to take this time to recover and and rest. Let your mind and body heal . There is a reason for everything and sometimes it doesn't make sense when it's happening but someday it will. I'm here if you need to talk. I hope you feel better soon!

Hugs,
AP