Hi there,
I just went through this. I was 8 weeks, and started to have brown spotting. About a week later on Dec 26th, the miscarriage occurred full force. It was horrible and painful, which I wasn't expecting. I actually felt contractions, and eventually passed the gestational sac and placenta. I completely understand how you feel. I too was the happiest I had ever been to find out I was pregnant, then to just lose it was devastating. I didn't have a D& C because mine occurred naturally. I also feel fear about going through this again. My pregnancy was a surprise, and I was sooo happy to have had it just "dropped in my lap" and not had to go through all the months/years of worry and fertility treatments, etc. What scares me is how painful (physically and emotionally) this was. To think that once you go through "getting pregnant"...You then have to stress about "staying pregnant" scares me to death. This miscarriage was an experience that I never want to go through again; however, that will not keep me from trying for a successful pregnancy. I had no idea how much I wanted another baby (my oldest is 15) until I found out I was pregnant with the one I just lost.
I am so sorry. I think we all understand how hard and unfair it all seems. It is amazing how we can bond with something so tiny. I also know how hard and scarey this time is and please know we are all here for you!