Miscarriage story

[MMiles27]

2 Thursdays ago I went in for a regular ultrasound at 16 weeks and they found no heartbeat and my baby measuring a week smaller. I had had no spotting or anything that would have indicated something wrong. I am devastated. They gave me mesoprostol to induce labor and I was supposed to insert it vaginally. They told me I could wait until Saturday night because Saturday was my sons 2nd birthday. Those were the hardest moments of my life. Knowing, even though my baby was no longer alive, that after I put the pills in he or she wouldn't be safe anymore. I was supposed to do the pills Saturday and Sunday evening before going to bed so they wouldn't move, but Saturday I just couldn't do it, couldn't wrap my mind around doing it. I called the hospital to find out if they could still do the d&c Monday with out the pills, turns out they wouldn't have been able to. So Sunday at around 5 in the evening my husband helped me with the meds and I just waited. By 8 contractions started and by midnight we were in the car on the way to the hospital. It was the most heartbreaking, painful experience of my life. By 2 in the morning I had passed my baby. A baby I'll never get to hold.They kept me until morning, did a painful internal ultrasound and said I didn't need the D&C that I could go home. 2 days later (and still going) my breasts began producing milk. I had to try and make Christmas fun for my son and my husbands son. I had to go to a family dinner with my sister who is 6 weeks further along then I was. I am totally devastated. It doesn't seem to be getting any easier. This hurts so bad and I am so so very sorry for all of you who have gone through this, this just shouldn't happen.

[Ecologic]

I recently lost a baby at 11 weeks, it is really hard!

I hope the presence of your son will help you alleviate your pain, I know that for me having my son (he is 19 months old) has made this 4th miscarriage a bit easier than my previous miscarriages (I had them before getting pregnant with my son). I try very hard not to think about this baby...

[Scout8601]

I'm so so sorry.  I cried while reading your story.  I've had 3 m/c's and they are so incredibly devestating.  My first one was like yours, a missed m/c.  I was only 8 weeks tho, can't imagine what it would be like to be 16 weeks and have this happen.  

I hope you have a lot of support.  Talking about it helped me.  Actually, with my first m/c, I talked with a therapist for a while.  It's been 3 years since the first m/c and I still think about it.  During the months after it was really hard.  I think I finally felt better once the due date came and went.  It takes time. I'll be thinking of you and again I'm really sorry.  It's so heartbreaking.