thanks. it's been a rough week, hoping this week goes better...
A miscarriage can be a difficult thing to go thru. Even if you didn't plan it, you were still getting used to the idea of a little one that you and your boyfriend created together so you may still mourn it. Your body is also going thru some huge hormonal changes that can mess with your mind. It will get better. Just let yourself go thru the mourning process. Take care of yourself and it will get better.
I don't know what it is, honestly. I think I'm just overwhelmed. It's been crazy lately, like the saying of "when it rains, it pours". I can't wait for the semester to be over, because I really need a break.
I know many people who have had miscarriages. They went through a tough time, but have managed to get out of it and have plenty of beautiful children after. I think you're feeling more guilty over the fact that you didn't want the baby rather than the miscarriage itself. But you need to remember the miscarriage occurred as a fluke, not because you didn't want the baby. Simply, it wasn't your fault. It's not your time and place to have a baby, and someone , if you believe in god, someone of a higher power also agreed you weren't ready for a baby. So be thankful you can still have children, but not now.