Sorry for the capital letters but I just NEED someone to figure me out. I'm 25 years old. I am richly blessed with 4 fabulous children and a great husband. I have the all american family, 7 year old son, 3 year old daughter, 1 year old twin boys, a hubby with a great job that will be around forever. But I am so so so so so tired of living.
God, where do I start? In the interest of time and for those that don't want to read my babble, you can skip to the bottom part after that ~~~~~ Long story short, have other autoimmune issues, neuro suspects MS now, symptoms listed after the ~~~~ Thanks for reading!
I came to this board looking for MS answers. I am having an MRI and LP in the morning at 10 and 11 and I'm VERY mad and scared about it. I have been "sick" for about 5 years although I didn't know it until late 2006. I started having problems with pain in 2002. I had just had 2 miscarriages so I was blown off because my docs though my pain was psyhosomatic from the miscarriages. Yah, whatever.
Fast Forward
October 2006 I was diagnosed with and autoimmune (AI) disease called primary biliary cirrhosis (PBC). I'd had some funkiness with my liver enzymes and my liver and spleen are very enlarged (hepatosplenomegaly). A week before my PBC dx I found out that I was pregnant again. My hepatologist (hepa) suggested I terminate the pregnancy (triplets!) but I won't even consider it. One baby died and I delivered healthy twins May 2007.
Next disease....after a couple of emergency surgerys (appedectomy & spontanious perotonitis caused by an abcess in my pelvis that came from nowhere) I was going at it again trying to find out what was wrong. I had a liver biopsy, MRCP, and ERCP and was dx with primary scerlosing cholangitis (PSC) in August 2007. It's another AI disease that is like PBC but destroys different bile ducts. "Supposedly" I have both PBC and PSC but most doctors refuse to believe they can overlap.
Anyway, my liver is doing great now.....all liver function tests are normal (or close enough).
So....
April of this year. Was walking around any my hands turned blue. Thought I'd touched something but it happened 4 times. Was dx with Raynaud's syndrome in May. Not a biggie, stay away from cold stuff or my hands loose circulation, at least that's what I'm told.
So in May when my fingers were tingly and numb I thought it was the Raynauds. Well the numb and tingly fingers turned into numb and tinlgy arms, feet and legs from the knees down. You know that sensation of when your leg falls asleep and it's trying to wake up....yah, well that's how it feels. And my arms just HURT. I've had joint pain for years now but this is different.
I go to my primary care physician (PCP) and she does every lab known to man kind. My estrogen, testosterone, cortisol and vitamin D is low. TSH is high. So I have hypothyroidism and "who knows" whats up with everything else. My vitamin B12 was "great" so I was referred to a neurologist.
I saw him and tried to explain myself to him, all the while feeling like a complete moron because I don't know what the heck it is or how to explain it. How do you explain to someone what a strawberry tastes like? Well...how do you explain what this intesne freakin' pain feels like.
Anywho. He does a neuro exam and my reflexes are "hypersensative" and my eyes wiggle. I knew that all along, been happening for a while now. I though it was being tired, he calls it nystagmus. Then he said it, what I was worried about "With your symptoms and age, I'm very concerned about the posibility of MS. Have you heard of it?" Yes I have. My uncle has it and is now unable to talk much and can barely walk.
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So that's my story, so far, at least the condensed version. I'm scared. I really am. I know that people say MS doesn't kill you and all that but it does make you feel like ****! And I'm more worried about living for 50 years and suffering everyday not being able to play with my kids than dieing "early". I am praying like crazy that I just have a pinched nerve. I came home and started reading about things and I have had neurological symptoms for a while now. It was just ignored because of my liver issues.
I get this twitchy thing where my head jerks to the left, only the left, and I can't help it. Don't know when it happens, why it happens, or how to stop it. It's just like someday it will happen frequently and then go away for a long time. Some time my arm flips up too. Left arm.
The wiggly eyes....they just go back and forth, horizonally, really quick and it takes a few seconds to recoop and open my eyes and focus. It happened each time the neuro shown light into my eyes. So I know I'm not imagining that.
The numbness, tingling, and pain....I think I've covered that well enough. (arms and legs)
Hypersenstive reflexes and wiggly eyes (nystagmus).
I have a hard time remembering things and I trip over my words sometimes. Or I can't say the word that I'm thinking of. I don't know how to explain it. It's frustrating. I used to be in nursing school. Had a 3.9 GPA (hated statistics class) and was super freakin' smart. Now I feel like a babbling fool.
Balance and coordination. Well I can do the finger to nose trick. Both more important things, like walking, not so great at. About 3 weeks ago I feel walking down the hallway carrying my 1 year old. Nothing in the way my leg just stopped working. I stumble sometimes, like I'm drunk. I also get REALLY dizzy and it lasts for 10 minutes or more, sometimes hours. Nothing helps, nothing makes it worse. It's just there.My 7 year old is my cane, he's at the perfect height for that.
So, as I type all of this out I'm getting more freaked out thinking it's MS. But it can't be, right? I mean, I already have 2-4 autoimmune diseases depending on which doctor you ask. Couldn't it just be a pinched nerve? That's what I'm praying for at least. I have my MRI at 10 am and LP at 11 am. I SO do not want to have the LP done but I'm assuming it's needed. I'm hoping someone on here talks me out of it in the next 8 hours. =)
Thanks for lettine me vent/ask questions. This board has such a great amount of info. I hope I don't have to "officially" join your group but I can see you'll be great support if I do have MS.
How long after the tests will I know? Okay....I'll shut up now.
Melissa