Body rocking

[Pauledh]

Hi,

I wonder if anyone could help me figure out something... Up until about 4 years ago I would body-rock. Im now 34, from the age of I realy dont know when... since my memory started at the age of say 2 i would body rock. I'd lie on the floor and rock for between a few minutes up to 6 hours or more. I'd rock on the floor and day dream and it seems that the rocking motion would help me day dream and I'd end up in almost in a trance. It completly messed up my education... instead of studying I'd body rock and dream whenever possible.... I mean I was totaly addicted to it, it may seam strange but it got worse from childhood. Im my teens and twenties i spent most of my spare time doing this, once I got to the age to start listening to music I'd body rock with music playing, with the different type of music depending one what i wanded to dream about or vice versa. It could be for the whole weekend and I've lost so much my life doing this.... You would'nt believe. I don't believe I'm autistic... i dont seem to show any other signs... I have a good career now and live a happy life but I'd like to understand what happened to me for all those years.

I'm not entirely sure this is the right forum, maybe it should be mental health but if anyone could help me understand I would much appreciatre your thoughts! If not i will try the other forums. Thanks for your time

[agustuspopp25]

i have a rocking problem ione time i was rocking myself and i acsedently pushd the dog off the bed and i find rocking myself grait i have one qwestion how do you rock your whol bod because i just rock my uper body?

[agustuspopp25]

i have the same problem  but heres my advise if you to stop rocking yourself: do  some sit ups this works by your stomach pushing agent the mussel under your ribs do that for about 10 or even 20 minuets if that docent work try jumping or drinking thicken liguids  to thicken liquids use cornstarch or even drinking tea

[88two]

I started body rocking in crib on four legs.  I specifically remember doing this like it was yesterday.  then when I was two used to rock in the chair in living room to classical music and folk music.  I also started rocking in bed on 45 degree angle.  Now at age 48 my rib cage is slightly bent from doing this so much and my left knee has been greatly affected.  I used to rock more when I was younger and in romantic entanglements.  It greatly affected my life as I could do it sometimes up to 12 hours in a day.  Now, I am older and my romantic entaglements thank God have gone down and I rock about 1/2 an hour or so before sleep to house music on youtube...  When I was in Hawaii once I could not rock because I stayed in a woman's shelter, but I met a nice guy not eh beach and we hung out at his house and as soon as I go there I asked if I could use his room to listen to music and I immediately started rocking on a mattress on his floor for about two hours.  I definitely go into a La La land trance where I can imagine anything that pleases me.  I was diagnosed with OCD 7 years ago.  I learned that unfortunately most people get diagnosed with OCD later in life.  My family was quite dysfunctional.

[Ben231291]

Hi fellow rockers. I roll my head side to side before I sleep I also listen to music at the same time the combination is calming. I've been doing this since I can remember. I think this may have caused the lump sorta shape at the back of my head, my bro has the same shaped head but his isn't as pointy as mine and he doesn't rock.
Anyone else have a similar problem?
or do I just have a weird shaped head haha.

[inbloom1]

So happy i found this place.I am 30 and i body rock since i can remember.My brother is 40 and he does it too.We come from a troubled family.My mom used to be under a lot of emotional stress and cried a lot during her pregnancies with us.We grew up in a bad environment,a lot of fights between my parents daily for years.They eventually divorced when i was 8.When i was a child i used to do it in the sitting position as well as in the lay down position.I remember this was something that always calmed me because as a child i was constantly afraid of being left alone and my biggest fear was dark.I would body rock singing songs until i eventually fall asleep.Around 9-10 y.o i have stopped the body rock in the lay down position but i never stopped the sitting body rock.
My entire life i felt ashamed of it much more cause i was caught by my mother and i felt so embarrassed that i decided to just hide it forever.I am a sensitive person and i get hurt easily.As a child i constantly needed attention and affection.
I don't have a social life.I always had very few friends.My only friend was music+body rocking.I love music so much i cannot imagine life without it.But if i would stop body rocking music would make no sense to me anymore.
I can body rock for hours.8-10 hours a day.I wasted my life because of it.I would do only things that i really urgently  must do.Otherwise i would just listen to music and body rock.It creates an universe where i feel totally happy.No stress,no anxieties,no worries and no boredom.It is beyond my understanding how people can listen to music without moving their bodies.I guess you can but than you would not have a true passion for music,you would not feel it the way i do.
I cannot have roommates or even a true relationship(living with someone) because of this.I fell ashamed that i might be considered crazy.It feels good to see that there are others with this.
For me this is just as a very powerful drug.I cannot stop it and to be truly honest i don't even want to.Body rocking is like a part of me.If i would have to stop this it would be like i am no longer myself.
I don't feel depressed anymore.Somehow i managed to feel ok being totally alone.The only thing that makes me sad is that i didn't follow my dream to become a musician.But i am still alive and not so old.
I hope someday somehow i can find just 1 person that does this and can understand me,don't judge me and we can do it together.

[BR89]

Hi, I agree with you about the music, I have experienced all of the things you describe! Do you still do it??

[inbloom1]

of course i do.i don't think it is possible to ever stop and have no desire to stop either.all i want is to reduce the amount of time spent on this to maximum 3 hours a day.

[KenH9]

You know, I am 22 years old and my sister and I used to rock all of the time. I now still rock, but I am scared that is has caused my heart to beat faster than usual all of the time. I am not sure if it is a panick attack or what, but I have been rocking since the beginning of time and maybe that is why my heart beats faster than usual. Who knows, I am just so excited that this is something that a lot of people go through. It is hard explaining it to someone who has not tried it or does not rock at all lol. They think we're all crazy when really, it is a HUGE stress reliever. I am just hoping that this is not the reason that my heart has been giving me extreme problems when I try to sleep.