Sweetheart, please get some therapy or counseling. If you can't afford anything else, talk to a pastor and see if some help can be found. I'm so sorry this happened to you. All you can do is fight back, now, by getting yourself some help.
shellsa, I can not forget that i was sexually abused, but i have learned to go on with life. I managed to get through the court case with help from friends, but i have never forgotten, i wish i could but learning to go on with life and finding happiness helped. the first thing i had to learn is that it was not my fault. next was to find ways to feel better about myself. talking helped, but the ecent changed my life.
i attend group therapy and counseling and meds :)