I hate that I have been diagnosed with this. It's like a scarlet letter for me. I was molested by 7 guys in the army. One being my now ex. I was also abused all throughout childhood by my father, who was also in the army. I thought I could trust them. It's difficult talking about it. Even on here. Idk what I'm asking. When I start to get upset I usually start to shake unless I have silky material or a needle and thread. Help...?