Fentanyl/Methadone Withdrawal Hell...

[MegE246]

I took everyones advice and reposted this... thanks...


someone help me.. ive been on the fentanyl patch for 15 days and it was abruptly stopped.. as well as already kicking 60 mg of methadone cold turkey and oxycodones.  its getting worse and worse and my dad called a methadone clinic an hour away and they said to get that girl on some form of opiate asap.. so i got oxycodone 10s and im STILL sick nonstop... nothing is helping the spasms and chills and fevers and i dont want to eat ive not been out of bed in five days.. i literaly started getting sick while i was still ON the last two days of the patch.  i dont know what to do, i feel like im dying...

btw the doc who prescribed it was in a hospital and one of many i saw when i was hospitalized for pancreatis and my family doc is no help and when i went to the ER yesterday i was sent home immediately with a list of detoxes in ohio with the case manager idiot saying "but you have to be clean before you go to any of them."  Im functioning right now because I bought percs and vicodins off the street but im almost out and im thinking of just trying to taper off of them.. the hospital system in the town i live in is extremely biased and backward (think like 10 yrs back in time) and they HATE drug addicts and everything, and im just a junkie to them.  the thing is i havent done any dope since june and thats why i was ON a methadone program.  Its so frustrating.  the thing is that i was living on the streets of New York City and on the methadone program there and then when i was hospitalized for having acute Hep C I could no longer live on the streets and came to live with my dad in this ****** town in Ohio and now Ive been sick ever since.  I am thisclose to just being on drugs for life.  I cant handle living this way - I found a Suboxone program but its an hour away each way and they want me to come three times a week plus go to doc appts and 2 NA meetings a week for 12 weeks just to get a script of Suboxone???!!  its insane in this state.  and nowhere else in the vicinity will take my medicaid.  my dad has been trying to help and been very supportive in trying to find me something but its almost damn near impossible to get help around here unless you want to basically give up your life.  And my life is very full.  I already had to quit my job, and its STILL full of a million things to do.. and i cant function unless im on opiates... its crazy...  

Meg

[designgyrl]

Meg,

I'm so sorry you're havig all these issues and pain to go along with it.  That is a lot of driving to go to the Suboxone program.  I have to agree with Sandee, have you had any time yet to post on the substance abuse program.  They know a lot more about the suboxone program and they can give you some great advice on how to handle your particular situation.  I'm so sorry you've had all these issues and to have chronic Hepatitis C, but at least your off the streets of NY and with your dad again.  Maybe he'll surprise you and e there or you, more than you'll ever think?  Good luck on your program and please let us know how it's going and stay in good health!  

[sandee1818]

Hi Meg,
I want to start by saying buying narcotics off the street is NOT the answer and will only bring you more pain. you have no idea what your getting and if/when your caught then you will be arrested and jailed and you will have absolutely no help in jail at all. This is just very dangerous to buy medications off the street. I know you are feeling there are no other options but there are always other ways. Do not lose your freedom and end up with jail time and fines trying to deal with this.
I am so sorry your going thru this at all but there is help out there so do not give up. Were you ever in pain management? What were you prescribed the Fentanyl for?
Do you have chronic pain issues?
This s some questions that will help us better understand.
Going thru withdrawal is horrible and I would not wish it on my worst enemy, I know your hurting and frustrated and scared. We will help any way we can. Have you posted in the substance abuse community? They have more experience in helping you thru the withdrawals than we do here so you may want to ask them for advice as well.
The program you mentioned concerning the suboxone is demanding but it may be better once you get established there. I know it is a long way but once you get the program started the demand will lessen such as you having to go so many times weekly. You can attend the NA classes closer to home though I assume.
It may be time consuming with the drive and all but it seems like the best option from what you have said right now.
I would call and speak with them and see if they can help you you as far as having to be there so many times weekly and ask can you reduce that any. Is there anyone you can stay with that is closer to the clinic there?
I wish I could do more.

[MamaAng]

I don't know your story, but I hope you can get help, soon.  Were you in a pain mgmt clinic for CP?  I am absolutely terrified of tapering meds and I am *only* on 15mg oxycodone every 6 hrs, if I miss one dose I go into sweats.  I can't imagine coming off anything stronger.  I am so sorry you are going through this :(  My heart goes out to you.