How are you doing with your detox? I certainly understand your desire to get away from the lortabs but I'm concerned that you're going cold turkey. You've got to be absolutely miserable right now. In spite of the horrible heat, hot baths can help temporarily so prune yourself. Adding epsom salts for extra magnesium helps too. Staying hydrated is extremely important, particularly if you're experiencing vomiting or diarrhea. Blood pressure skyrockets during detox so if you already have hypertension you could be in big trouble. I hope someone is with you or at least aware that you're detoxing in case you need immediate medical help.
You probably know by now that your pain will be exquisitely worse and it will be all over your body. It may be a few weeks before it returns to a dull roar. I hope you can tolerate it. It just breaks my heart that you're giving up on even minimal pain relief but understand your reasoning. Sometimes opiate therapy just isn't worth it. It's a very personal decision.
OK, addiction vs. dependence. Dependence is a normal side effect of opiate therapy. All that means is that you will go through withdrawal when you stop taking the meds. Addiction is a mental issue involving cravings and obsession to maintain the euphoric feelings narcotics bring. Taking more than prescribed, doctor shopping to get more meds, lying about pain to get more meds - those are the kinds of behaviors that pertain to addiction.
To make matters more confusing, there is a little-discussed behavior called psuedo addiction. That's when a patient has legitimate pain that is either not treated or is under treated, and a patient exhibits the behavior of an addict (like doctor shopping or taking more than prescribed) solely for reasons of pain management rather than pursuing euphoria.
Please check back in and let us know how you're doing.
Go get 'em Sometimes even your doctors need a wake up call. Best wishes.
Sissie
It took me YEARS to figure out what was REALLY going on. And I understand your frustration. I saw a TON of doctors during that time.
Turns out I (FINALLY!) got a GOOD doctor who ran tests for Lyme Disease (most doctors where I live don't even RECOGNIZE Lyme Disease) and it came back positive. By then, it was considered late stage Lyme and it had already wreaked havoc on my body (causing rheumatoid arthritis, fibromyalgia and a number of other things as well).
Maybe you could mention Lyme to your doctor and see if he could test you?