latest update since my sad news

[waitn838]

well..i still havent started cramping nor spotting yet...last night i had a dream that i was preg with twins and only was losing one...it was weird then i woke up went to the bathroom...still nothing

i went back to sleep again and this time i dreamt that i went to the bathroom and just starting bleeding like crazy and was in so much pain and felt the baby pass...that was more like a nightmare but i woke up crying from that

im terrified to go to the bathroom at this point...its so hard waiting the inevitable out...

i go back monday for a HCG draw to see what my levels are at then...my doc said they are going to follow it down to 0 again and then im being referred to a faternal (or paternal) specialist to look into my problems but i talked to my bf last night and i honestly dont think i want to try anymore...

i have one miracle child that will be 5 in march....im lucky to have him...if anything my bf and i may look into adopting

im not usually a quitter but when my body is ripped and torn and torn again and it takes months to get my emotions back in line i have to make a smart choice

i cant get my tubes tied because of my blood clotting issue but i can request a hysterectomy...my doc told me i will need to get one in the next 5 years anyway....

i want to say to all you women who endure the pain of loss and try again you are truly strong women and i admire that...and then there's the people who can get preg with no problem but cant provide a stable life for the children they already have and guess what --- they go make more babies...that just makes me sick

if you want my email address to stay in touch send me a message...i prob wont be on here for awhile after this m/c happens

thanks again ladies

[Helen72]

I hope that baby aspirin will do a magic trick and you will have a bfp coming your way soon!!
I am so sorry what you have to endure!!!

[LisaRG]

Oh I'm so sorry.
But 5 years is quite a while from now.
I wish you all the health and luck in the world and I hope you can find a specialist in this field that can help you try for one more baby!
MY Sisiter in Law has  a rare genetic blood disorder also which causes clotting so that the fetus cannot get blood and she has had 5 miscarriages in the past 2 years.  She finally saw a specialist recently who believes she can concieve and carry full term with daily injections, now she is back ttc.
Best wishes
Lisa

[waitn838]

i have a rare genetic blood clotting disease and im protein S deficient...2 OBs have said that as I age my blood flow will begin to slow down and they both have recommended a hysterectomy when im done having children because just my monthly period could cause a blood clot to form and its just a visicous cycle

[waitn838]

my doc said that i should be ok with baby aspirin but he wanted me to be on baby aspirin at least 3 months before TTC...i concieved 2 weeks after starting baby aspirin...i will continue to take the baby aspirin and if i do TTC again (at this time im not thinking so) then my doc is referring to me a maternal fetal medicine doctor for their input

[LisaRG]

Oh my goodness.
Why would you get a hysterectomy in 5 years?  Why is your Obgyn telling you you will have to?  Do you have many gynecological problems??
If you do not, then PLEASE do not get a hysterectomy.  You are still so young, I don't see why you wont eventually be able to conceive and carry another baby.
I am so sorry that you are going through this nightmare - I have gone through it twice myself.
I am keeping you in my thoughts.
Lisa

[SoCalTricia]

I'm so profoundly sad for you. I can't even begin to imagine what you're going through. There's nothing I can say to make you feel better, so I won't even try. Just know that there are a lot of people rooting for you and I hope you find peace, whatever you decide to do. {{{waitn838}}}

Wondering, though, about your "blood clotting issue"? I was reading online yesterday about a woman who kept miscarrying (four times) until they discovered some kind of clotting issue, and put her on heparin. She was able to carry to term after that. I'm sure you've checked into everything...but just in case. :-)

Tricia