Update from OB appointment

[adgal]

Well, I just got home, and sadly it is not great news.  My initial Beta/HCG (blood taken yesterday) was only 19.  I am also spotting a bit heavier (now there is a little on my pantyliner), although it is still brown.  Now, she said it could be a later ovulation than I thought, late implantation, or just what she called a "slow starter", so she is not calling it a miscarriage yet.  I am having blood drawn again tomorrow, and will have those results friday morning.  But, with the low no. and the spotting, I am being realistic, it's not good.  I am actually ok.  Sad of course and a bit ticked off, but at least I am still conceiving.  It still happens quickly for us, with the exception of the time I spent on the chlomide.  She feels I am one of those 20% of women who have a negative reaction to it.  I asked about other options, such as donor eggs, but she doesn't feel it's time to take that step yet...lol, she said "Amanda, your only 40"...God, I love her!!  I think I told some of you, she herself miscarried 4 times prior to having her first child at 41. She really gets it.  I am still trying to be positive, maybe this number will start to rise dramatically.  I mean, my first FRER was so faint, has progressively gotten darker and that digital this morning is rated at 25 HCG, so maybe that means the level has risen from yesterday.  I will know friday morning.  And ladies, I can still get pregnant, so I am going to hold onto that!  I am NOT going to be defeated!!!!!!  It may be crazy, but I am not prepared to give up yet, I am just not.  Thanks for being so supportive, I will keep you posted!!  Love you guys, Amanda

[usuk]

Hang in there Amanda. I am praying for you.

[etts172]

Amanda,

I am so sorry you are going through this again. Don't worry God is watching you right now because you have a big heart. She will keep an eye on you. Don't give up!

Love,
Etts

[blueeyedtabbycat]

I am so sorry you are going through this after just reciving such exciting news:(  I will be thinking about you and your little bean and praying that this one sticks!! Keep us updated, I hope I hear good news:)

[Juliaschill]

Just wanted to stop in and say I am praying for you and your little one, I don't know you but have loved ready all of your post, you have a way with words that put people at easy. I think you will be a wonderful mother and how lucky any child will be to be able to call you mother! God must just be picking out a very special child for you so it is taking a little while for the perfect one, Hope this one will be it.  You are very strong and loving and I do so hope that this turns out well for you, God bless you and your little bean!  Best wishes Julia

[Leatha]

I just read you post Amanda, your thoughts are everything, so keep focused on the outcome.  I truly believe we create our own reality through our thoughts.  Keep the faith and things will go your way.

[pcarsey]

You hang in there lil bean, mommy and daddy have lovingly and patiently waited for you!!

I think you implanted late. I'm still keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers as always!

Big hugs Sista!!