30 weeks. being. mean

[aliciababi]

Im not feeling happy about the baby im afraid and im being mean and im trying not to be mean I do not know why i feel this way im consider if i will have it ti care for him. . Im a singke mother so im so frustated and i feel bad .  I spend time. At home a lot im broke i wish i could go out. I wanna b happy i think i will when he come. I been smoking. Like over the weekend i had five cigrattes im afraid i only feel him when im layin. DDown so much on my mind wish i had some one to talk to i feel im not as big but ever one is different

[aliciababi]

A lot of peopld tell me oh dont cry u stress the baby out i feel so bad for it but its like oh i cant help it

[flowers75]

I understand what you are going through because I don't feel connected to by baby yet which is a little sad. All is can think about how is had my live before and someone just tore it apart with no type of remorse.  I cried so many times because am so mad with myself for been in this position.  It *****, but life will get better one day. There is nothing no one can say to you that can stop these tears from falling. I feel your pain. I don't talk about my like to a party one because I can't control my break down.  It's Just sad.

[aliciababi]

Thank u .. i do pray and i have low income so i get food stamps for me. And i gueszz it doesnt change til he comes. But. The fear i have is making it hard for me to b happy .. but. I love my son so much and im tired of crying and stressinf him out i feel so bad

[flowers75]

I know it's hard be a single mom but your now alone. I myself is a single and I am not happy about my current situation either.  Put I pray about it and ask God for a better ending and I remain faithful that he will answer my prayer. I just try to apply for any form of assistance I am eligible for and make the best of my situation.  Just try to app for any type of cash any assistance and food stamp to help you out until you get on your feet.  God bless you sweetie, stay strong and pray.